elizabeth73 Posted May 21, 2010 Share Posted May 21, 2010 I feel like a bad mother, yet i do everything a good mother should be doing. Yet i have this stupid pedistall for myself and never feel like im doing enough. I need something, but i don't know what it is. I really need to find it, somethings missing. I had it before i met my ex and now in this moment im at a loss. I am generally not a depressed person, and this is why its bothers me so much. I just want to move on from the past , leave it behind, but my ex keeps resurfacing, keeps telling me why i am this horrible person. I wish he would die, get wiped out. He has partial custody of my children, why because i could not prove that he ever hit or was abusive to my children. I could only prove that he was that way to me. He took his anger mangement so now he father of the year, and gets the children in the summer and some holidays. he doesn't pay child support and now after two years of being seperated, he is sueing me, for selling his stuff well he went to jail. ( i had to sell it to help pay off his debt and take care of my boys) I hate him soo much. Everyone tells me it will all work out but the anger inside of me won't go away. He is trying everything in his power to make my life miserable and its working. I am so tired of fighting with him, and know that he wont stop until he has the children full time. I feel like he is winning and i am running out of funds to fight him. i am still paying off debt from the relationship, paying lawyers.........am so close to just giving up. Why do the bad guys always win.......i have to keep fighting because i don't want my boys to turn into wife beaters......but i am sooo tired Link to comment
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