alidaxx Posted May 18, 2010 Share Posted May 18, 2010 Ok, so to start off my story - I've been with my (now) fiance for 6 years. He suprised me, and proposed two weeks ago.. one of the best days of my life. We started dating when I was 16 and he was 18. We've grown up together, which to me is a very special thing. We enjoy doing the same things, we hold the same beliefs about major issues, and we get along extremely well. We always used to say to each other how we're best friends, lovers, and bf/gf. Anyways, what I'm trying to say is that all in all we're perfect for one another. We've had our share of arguments and fights, but in the end, what it always came down to was that we both knew we wanted to be with one another and make it work. At 18 I was naive, and believed in true love, the kind with a fairy tale ending... until I found pictures of him going out in a limo, with girls around his shoulders. He lied to cover his lies, and I ended up finding more pictures of other nights he went out, and didn't tell me about. Anyways, I still don't know if he was telling the full truth, and I know there's been more nights like this I don't know about. It was like I didn't know him anymore. It was the lies that hurt the most. I sought revenge so to say, and started talking and chilling with other guys, which before I had never even dreamed of doing... just to get back at him, and do things that he wouldn't know of, just like how I didn't know of what he was doing. Thinking back now, as this was like 3 years ago, I think about how stupid and immature we both were. I hope that he never did anything serious, because I didn't. He's the most amazing guy ever, and I know in my heart that we were always meant to be together. He just wants to make me happy, and he's shown that to me in so many ways. He means the world to me, and I don't want anything to ever come between us. Ok, so what's the problem? Ever since getting engaged, I've been showing my ring off to everyone, family, friends, co-workers... I get a text from a guy I used to chill with. Last time I had seen him was nearly 2 years ago... I used to come to his house and play xbox. He also had/has a girlfriend, and I figured nothing would EVER happen. The fact that I was chilling with a guy, and not telling my boyfriend, was enough in terms of 'revenge' for me, while he was out at bars, and clubs with girls. Anyways, I replied to his text by saying "i'm engaged he asked if I wanted to get together, and seeing no harm I said yes. We drank a few beers, and he invited me to his house, to chill and just "talk", he even said he'd sit accross the room on another couch. Confident nothing would happen, I went to his house. He turned on the tv, and I went on his computer. Once I got up from computer, he came up and started kissing me, I was taken aback, and even more so when he violently grabbed my hair and pulled it really hard. This guy is really tall and like 250lbs. I was so scared, and felt like I had no control. He picked me up and fell with me on his bed, I don't know what I was thinking. I just wasn't thinking, I should have just gotten up, and left. He had sex with me, for a whole 5 min until I got on top of him, and stopped. I still had all my clothes on. I feel worthless, used, and regret seeing this bastard. All I could think of was my fiance, and how I was too much of a retard to do anything to stop it. This was completely all my fault, and I feel sick to my stomach thinking about it. I don't know what to do. Especially because I didn't want any of this to happen. I don't want to lose my fiance. But it hurts me 1000x more when I look into his eyes, and know that I'm lying to his face by not telling him. Link to comment
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