I dont know what to do? Why do I feel like this?

[soursobgirl]

I dont know whats wrong with me .

 

All of a suddern I seem to have gone off my boyfriend. Thing is I am never happy around him, but yet I cant break up with him.

 

I know I do love him - but I don't get what I want from him.

 

I have built my life around his and he has done nothing to change his.

 

Maybe cause we never get alone time anymore we are grown apart. I feel like I need to see him all the time for him to love me. I make excuses to see him right after we go back to work from lunch. So I can feel that he loves me etc.

 

I just feel very vaunrable. I want him to call me nice names and be romantic with me and he doesnt. We dont even have that much intimacy, because we are hardly ever alone.

 

Lately I have started to make excuses also to do things with him. I dont even know if he turns me on anymore.

 

It is a horrible feeling.

Yet I cannot live without him.

 

Its like I want to be with him - but I want him to give me what I want. So I continue to stay with him in the hope that he will give me the emotional support that I need.

 

Maybe its the environment around me. I hate my job, I hate my home life. I am in debt. I cannot save any money.

 

I just feel dead I dont know what to do.

 

I want his eyes to light up when he see's me and they dont. Yet he tells me he loves me? I don't understand.

 

I am so confused right now.

 

Has anyone ever felt like this?

[Adge]

Talk to him!

[spongey]

dear, you definitely need a heart to heart talk with him. Be clear of your expectation to him that you wish him to be honest when he pours his feelings out. Stay strong...