how should i kill myself ????

[rashcroft]

i'm 23 years old and it seems every little thing in my life is falling apart.

i don't enjoy anything anymore, i'm drunk most of the time and i'm just not able to love anybody.

my family is composed by a bunch of idiots who only care about money so i don't talk to them anymore. i can't stand people, therefore, i have no friends.

[ToF]

No one here is going to tell you how to kill yourself.

[Prefix]

You don't want to kill yourself. Trust me. Nothing is worth that. You have so much to live for, even if you don't notice it right now - simple things like being able to lay in a field and look up at a blue sky, or to see the trees change from summer to fall, or any one of a million things.

 

I know you do not truly want to kill yourself. You are able to love, but you need to first love yourself.

 

Please, try to seek out some help. Seeking help does not make you weak, it makes you smart. Any flaw you see in yourself can be fixed if you just put in the time and effort.

 

Good luck and godspeed.

[Sunny1607307996]

The best thing I ever did was get into therapy. I was opposed to it for a long time and it wasn't until I hit "rock-bottom" and was forced into therapy (and then later, voluntarily) that it really stuck that I needed some help.

 

Please know that no matter how bad life seems right now, there is always tomorrow and there's always hope.

 

Have you ever been to an AA meeting? I'm sure they would have some great resources for you and it would be beneficial or you to get your drinking under control.

 

Do you go to school? Many universities have free mental health services.

 

Do you have insurance? Many plans cover therapy sessions, and if you don't have insurance many therapists will work with you for a payment plan.

 

If you really feel you're going to kill yourself tonight you need to call 911 and go to the hospital. They are there to help you.

 

No one here will tell you how to kill yourself because you SHOULD NOT kill yourself! There is hope, I promise. There are many people on this forum who have crawled out of the deep, dark hole of depression. It can be done.

[newwave]

I would suggest the easiest way to commit suicide but that would not be cool. The CEO of my former employer killed himself by getting hit by a train (I used to work for a railroad). When I heard he did this (he was in trouble for corruption) my first thought was that someone would rather kill themself rather than see what happens in life (he was probably going to prison). Right now my life is beyond terrible with job problems (laid off and unable to find a job) and guy problems (the one I like doesn't want me now). I ask myself why all this happens. Then I tell myself things will get better. Will they? Who knows but suicide means that there is no possibility of things getting better.

[DN]

I think you should do it this way:

 

first you should go to AA in order to help you stop drinking and see a doctor for help with depression.

secondly you should forgive your family, try to get along with those you can and distance yourself from those you can't.

third, you should look for new interests and exciting things to do in order to live as productive and fulfilling a life as possible.

If all this is successful, then old age will take care of your question.

[treeclimb]

i'm 23 years old and it seems every little thing in my life is falling apart.

i don't enjoy anything anymore, i'm drunk most of the time and i'm just not able to love anybody.

my family is composed by a bunch of idiots who only care about money so i don't talk to them anymore. i can't stand people, therefore, i have no friends.

 

I'm sorry that you have found yourself in such a hard place. I have suffered major depression including having shock treatment but for some time now my life has been good.

 

It can seem at times when things are bad that things can only get worse - you just can't see things ever getting better or things turning around for you. However, they can and do for people. Part of it is allowing time. You are very young (although you might not think so) and there is a lot of time for your life to change. Just allow yourself time. Don't pressure yourself that you need to fix it all right now. Step back from some of the situations and know there is no hurry and there is plenty of time for things to be fixed here and there and to get better.

 

There are times when you feel alone and that you are the only one facing such problems and issues. But realise that there are many many people who face similar issues to you. Whether it is dealing with an addiction or problems with family. Issues with family are a problem for many people, and many people have your problem. It could be that your family is the way you describe in that black and white fashion, or it could be that your low mood is making them seem even worse at this time. Remember too, people do change - so given some time some of your family might change too. I can understand anger at others though - and don't feel guilty for feeling like that. But like I said, try not to let family issues make you think or feel less of yourself - that's the most important thing. If they are of no help to you at this time, just forget about them for now and look after yourself and your own life. Spending a lot of time dwelling on them if they're of no help to you at this time will tend to drain your energy which is something you don't need right now. Remember that MANY people have the same problem with family, be it on a bigger or smaller scale.

 

I don't think you really hate people. You are just confused right now. Try and seek out the better people right now. People who will understand you and show you kindness. Easier said than done maybe. But perhaps a support group for your drinking or depression might be helpful. Remember the people you meet don't have to become your best buddies. There are all kinds of relationships - big and small. Maybe see a counsellor and your doctor. Your doctor should be able to tell you where you could find a choice of counsellors depending on the money you are prepared to or able to spend.

 

The most important thing is to learn to love yourself more. There are some good self-help books around that could help you here. Also, you could ask a counsellor how to do this. Realise too that when we are depressed we tend to look at things through negative eyes. That is, we tend to focus on the negatives going on and overlook any positives. Understanding this might help you when your mood is lower - i.e. you'll understand better why you are feeling that way.

 

I suggest you get help for both your depression and your drinking. Drinking the way you are is not a good road to go down, as you no doubt know. Don't ignore the problem. You need to find alternatives to dealing with things beside drink. There are other alternatives. But you need help in finding them. Your doctor might be a good start. Don't feel threatened by getting help or dealing with issues. Nobody can make you do anything you don't want to. Do it now - do something positive by taking a step here - that will make you feel better in itself. But don't give up if things don't go smoothly at first. Just persist and look for solutions elsewhere.

 

Right now just take a step back from your situation. Realise you've got plenty of time for solutions, and that there are many possibilities for solutions out there. Take a deep breath and let out a big sigh. Realise that things are going to have to change and you'll need to take a step. One step will lead to another and things will get better.

[preciousgirl82]

First, please stop all this talk of killing yourself. You are not solving anything by doing that and even if it feels otherwise, I know your death would hurt someome in your life very much. I can understand your pain. I dont think theres a single person on here who can say the thought hasnt crossed our minds. Even me! But do you know why Im still here today?? Because even when things feel horrible like it will never, ever get better, something in the back of your mind reminds you that no pain lasts forever. Things may suck for you right now but live to see if things have a happy ending. Remember that we are in control of our own lives and our happiness. Find your happiness and go get it no matter what obstacle stands in your way. And im going to give you something to remember. When you wake up and ask yourself why you should go on remember...it gets greater later!!! Smile, because, even though i dont know you, i know you have something to smile about. Consider talking to someone you trust. Fight through this and use your life lessons to come on here and help others who may be going through the same situation. Good luck!