ElectricSheep123 Posted April 29, 2010 Share Posted April 29, 2010 I don't understand this! I've been in no-contact for a month and a week, since the day I broke up with him (blocked him on Facebook, blocked his e-mail, changed cell phone etc). He cheated on me 4 months into our relationship, with his ex-girlfriend (he is bisexual and was in his first gay relationship with me). While we dated only 4 months, we really had a connection. When we broke up, I was completely devastated. I was told no-contact would help me to heal. Except that it really hasn't. The only difference is that I don't cry on the outside anymore. Last night, I almost cried myself to sleep. Today, I haven't gotten out of bed. Since we broke up, I've thought about him 99% of the time. I try to work more often, but work's kinda boring (retail clothing store) and he pops into my head. I go to the gym, thoughts of him motivate me. I hang out with friends, they catch me staring into space in the middle of conversations. Any short moments of clarity are completely negated by longer and more intense periods of heartache, drowsiness, depression, feelings of anger and hopelessness. I don't want him back... I think. But I just don't know what to do. He's tried to contact me by calling my house a number of times (last Sunday, he called 6 times in a row), but each time I ignore it. I'm having a relapse, and I guess I just need to rant. I also need some reassurance. Please. Help? Link to comment
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