Why does it hurt so much?

[CSU]

Before I start I just want to give a little background on this guy. First I have posted on here before but I'm just having a difficult time coping. This guy, I known him for two years. We lost touch because I had a dark stage in my life and I had to get myself clean. About a month ago I decided to contact him because I felt as if he deserved a reason as to why we lost contact. Come to my surprise found out he's engaged and got this girl pregnant after only 2 weeks of dating her. They're getting married in May. From what he's told me about her is that this girl family hates him because he doesn't believe in god and this girl thought we were dating long distance because we live in different states and he was always texting or calling me. We talked for 2 hours or so and he told me he envied me because I dance, I was a cheerleader, I write music, I sing, and I play the piano and guitar. I'm a very performing arts person. As for me I would say yeah I may have done all that in my life but I had my rough times and those were the things kept me motivated in school and at home. I want to tell him how I truly honestly feel about him but I know I shouldn't because he is engaged and about to become a father. It just that when we were talking he always tell me that I wasn't like other girls and that he's truly met the one and he would always ask me questions about my dream wedding and stuff. By the end of our conversation he told me he's just a call or a text away and that he wants to know why I can't express how I feel. It just hurts and it sucks but he wants to remain friends but I don't think I can remain friends with someone that I had and still do have an interest in. I though I was over this issue because I have met someone that I care about and known for almost a year now but I guess I'm not because this guy is still in my head and I've talked to my friends and they're telling me that his relationship with this girl he got pregnant won't last and that I should invest my time and energy into this new guy because he does make me smile and we're just alike in every way. I know with this new guy its going to be something good but I feel as if if I don't tell this guy how I feel I can't move on but I'm ready to move on.

[Xylitol]

you can't walk into 2 buckets of water at the same time and lead a decent life while you are at it. Just imagine this scenario, you stick with him, he goes with you, the child loses his father and his wife hates him for cheating you get them into a divorce and all hell breaks loose. You had your chance, you blew it, and as a responsible adult you must understand that you have to take the consequenses of your actions, and that for all your actions there is a price that must be paid.

 

This is a closed book, don't contact him anymore because you'll open up a gate to hell for him and yourself. Find yourself someone new and start a new fresh beginning instead of ripping open old wounds , nobody's going to benefit from that, not you, not his child,not his wife nor him , so for the love of god leave him alone and move on with your life.

[AutumnBorn]

That guy you're hung up on? He's not intelligent enough to seriously consider. He left birth control up to a girl he doesn't even know. He still can't know her. She got pregnant after two weeks? I wouldn't give this marriage any hope at all. Unfortunate for the little one.

 

Set your standards higher than Guy #0. That's my advice.