Chantal87 Posted April 22, 2010 Share Posted April 22, 2010 It would have been 3 years together this past Tuesday. It would have been us together. I thought I was over him, but I found myself looking at old photos of him on facebook, doubting why I broke it off. Then having dreams about him and I together. I know why I left, he treated me like crap, he lied about loving me, he was controlling and manipulative, but I still miss him. I miss talking to him, seeing him, having him be the only one who understood. I know it wasnt a mistake, but can I ever get over this? Maybe this is why im so hesitant with moving on with another guy, I keep thinking to myself I can do it, he treats me better, maybe I will be happy again. But im not happy. Its like my ex has taken the happy right out of me, made me not have trust in guys anymore, close up my heart. Made me believe that Love isn't real and how would you ever know? I thought I was in love and he said he wasn't, where does that leave me? empty. This is a rant, I just need to get it out of my system before I email him and tell him everything that has made me doubt myself by his words and actions. Because Im so close to picking up the phone at this point, even though that would be the worst thing to possibly do. I dont want him back, im just confused and angry and betrayed and hurt. Link to comment
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