d_lilah Posted April 22, 2010 Share Posted April 22, 2010 For the last 2 months of NC i've been telling myself that I am over it. That I don't need him in my life, that he had done so much wrong that I can do so much better. I deserve better. But the truth is I am not. He made me feel wanted, loved and he always gave me something to look forward to. Now I just feel empty. I was cast aside and forgotten about so quickly that it hurts. He said he wanted to be friends, but ignored every effort I made. I always thought friends were there for you always, not just when they decide it's easier for them. I just can't believe I am that unimportant to him. That I never meant anything to him, and he meant the world to me. I have my finals coming up at university and I can't concentrate for continually thinking about him. I've tried the 'stop' mantra, and everything, but I just can't do it. I know we will never be together again, but the fact that I was so easily forgotten about has really damaged me. It feels like it's impossible for anyone to ever care for me. And if he just showed he cared a little, I wouldn't be feeling like this. Things were said on both our sides that didn't make things easy. I know I regret most of what I said, but now NC is in place, I can't get in touch with him to apologise. I've already spent far too much of my pride that I couldn't handle it if I was just ignored again. I know this is a long shot, but has anyone here ever had a breakup where horrible things were said afterwards and you still reconsiled, even if just as friends? Did you make the first move, or did they? How long did it take for communication to resume? Do any dumpers out there not get in contact because of their pride? Link to comment
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