unhappy101 Posted April 22, 2010 Share Posted April 22, 2010 Ok it’s been over 2 months since my ex called time on our relationship. I got 3 texts and that was my lot. She went from loving me and wanting to marry me, to never wanting me to contact her again. 4 years gone in the blink of an eye. I did everything begging pleading etc, then I went NC. Been that way for well over a month. I have been doing better, telling myself if someone can end a relationship after 4 years by text, it’s best they’re gone before it gets ‘too late’, however I was out tonight and EVERYTHING reminded me of her. I started to miss her. When I got in, I looked at my bed where she once slept and it felt like I had a giant hole in me. I then thought about ringing her, and going round to where I think she could be, saying to myself if only I could talk to her, it is easier to try than I thought - just dialling a number. If only she could see the changes that are/have happened in my life. If only I could tell her how things would be infinitely better, to come back and actually give it that one last real chance. I know her friends and family would be telling her to stay away and she can do better etc. But she was more than a g/f. She became part of the family, and her family said they loved me like a son in law. Does that really all just vanish? If she is the person I thought I knew for 4 years, I believe she still loves me, and wants the relationship without the problems and if she knew that what would she really think? I know she can’t just let go of things, but she has a lot of pride.. If anything all I want is closure better than a text, so things are left nicely and we could talk in the future. I can’t believe how much I love this girl. The thought of her not wanting me, or with another man/rebound etc is too much for me to bare. Do I stay NC or do I risk rejection going after the girl I love? In Rocky 3, there is a famous scene where Rocky tells Adrian he is scared to fight, and she tells him to go for it. He says ‘what if I lose’? She replies, ‘then at least you lose with no fear’. What I mean is, what if I don’t try and something could have happened? I am so confused, go easy on me I’m in a delicate way! Thanks in advance. Link to comment
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