inlove2much Posted April 19, 2010 Share Posted April 19, 2010 I have the worst problem - it's a living hell - a nightmare I won't wake up from - After giving up on love, and being alone and almost completely uninterested in sex anymore - I met the most wonderful, sexy, attractive, warm, funny, intelligent and all around AMAZING woman in my ENTIRE life! I have been hopelessly and helplessly in love with her ever since!! I can't get enough of being around her, and I desire her sexually more than I have EVER desired ANYONE - everything about her turns me on - my problem? At age 53 I have - as the result of multiple health issues and side effects from medications - been diagnosed with sexual dysfunction and low testosterone. I am also currently having lots of problems with my prostate and it is exasperating the problem - It's not that I can't have sex at ALL - in fact today is a prime example I had one of the most wonderful sexual experiences of my entire life I had no problem obtaining an erection, maintaining the erection, and reaching full orgasm - but a fairly short time later I tried to have sex again and lost my erection before I could reach a second orgasm. My girlfriend was IMMEDIATELY OFFENDED and it's causing fights and leaves me feeling like a piece of crap. What's WORSE is that I recently lost my job - or more accurately was forced into disability - have major financial issues/worries, been diagnosed with Hep C and am about to start treatment for it - and I'm a complete WRECK over this - This is a time when I could really use some understanding, love and affection from her - but instead I get accusations, I'm told that she doesn't believe I love her - she thinks I have no attraction for her - brings up anything and everything she can think of about my past relationships, constantly asks me if I had more attraction for women in my past - it's absolutely discouraging, depressing and just destroying our otherwise "match made in heaven" relationship. If this wasn't the ONLY issue I could easily accept we just aren't right for each other and move on - but I have NEVER in my LIFE been so stuck on another human being. I am so in love with this girl that all I ever want to do is to be with her. I always want her sexually - though I might not always be able to perform - she has always been extremely attractive to me - I honestly feel like sex with her is the BEST sex I have EVER had - she has awakened my libido that was dormant prior to her - I think of sex with her ONLY and in roughly eight months find myself so much in love with her that the thought of living without her just DESTROYS me. I want to marry this woman and have her as my wife - I want to grow old with her and build a future with her - she is EVERYTHING I have EVER wanted in a woman and am so in love that this problem just destroys me. If there was a SHRED of truth in her accusations it might be different, but the truth is is that I'm completely totally in love with her, sexually attracted to her like I've NEVER been - and feel so devoted to her that I'd rather die than be without her. Is there anyway I can get her to understand that it's NOT a matter of sexual attraction? There is NOTHING lacking in our love making at least not from my perspective - the only problem is a medical one and just because I'm not great in bed all the time doesn't mean I don't love her like I say I do. What can I do? It's destroying me. Link to comment
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