drake11 Posted April 16, 2010 Share Posted April 16, 2010 So it's been just over two months since my ex broke up with me from a 1 year relationship, my first (shes 19, im 22). It wasn't a bad break up, she told me she didn't feel the same way she use to (that's all I know), I just told her how awesome she was and that I respect her decision and that I don't think we could be friends for a long time or that we should talk for awhile. I have been NC since the day after. I had initially done it to try to get her back, but I mean after about 3 weeks I didn't expect much. Things have gotten MUCH better, I was a mess for about a month haha, but now I can get on with my life, I have a lot of fun with my friends and stuff, go to the gym and am studying hard etc. Sometimes I actually feel awesome, like being single won't be be to bad, I have a lots going for me and lots of friends. However she is on my mind almost all the time still! There is still a lot me that thinks that she is awesome (which she is, but I often have to convince myself that there are others which I know) and I would love to get back together with her. In the back of mind I feel like maybe if I just waited longer we could fix things because IF it ever happened I want to make sure we are both in the same place and I will not beg, nor do I want her out of guilt on her part. So there are all those feelings I have but I also wish they would go away. Around her friends and mine I don't talk about it, and act completely normal even though sometimes I feel * * * * ty. It's been two months shouldn't it be better then this already? I do struggle with checking her facebook much to often, but is there anything else I can do? Do you think I am handling things ok so far? I am find it hard that these feelings of wanting to get back with her linger so much. Link to comment
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