Feeling a little overwhelmed by feelings of complete clarity now...

[mca1975]

Hi All,

 

Just needed to post as feeling very very strange tonight. I have this huge feeling of like....(dont know how to describe it..), its not regret, but a feeling of complete clarity where I am realising to much that life is far too short to spend it on being unhappy and arguing with people.

 

I know this relates to my recent break-up (very recent), but I am actually feeling very positive about it now, have not been thinking about it much today at all and have generally felt good today.

 

I am feeling a little guilt tonight and just wanted to vent that, as it is his birthday tomorrow and I was meant to be with him, but I wont be now of course.

 

I gave him a present to open on his birthday and I have come away for two days to give us both some space. I am 90% certain he has people to spend his birthday with, friends etc. so that is good.

 

I know I am contradicting myself on the above, but I felt really angry that his 14-year old niece took me off her Facebook Friends, obviously since she has heard, because I always knew that she disliked me. I know she is probably being loyal but......

 

I know I don't have to tell my side to all and sundry but you know when you feel angry when people just don't know shi* about what really goes on.

 

Anyway, just wanted to vent, sorry!

 

No more wasting your life away on being unhappy!

[Sonicxman]

I know exactly what you mean, people that we know seem to always ask my ex what happened between us and never me, and always gets her point of view on it. Then I have to hear about from my ex, not sure why she would tell me but it irritated me.

[mca1975]

Well I suppose we should just think that we know in our hearts what really went on and that we did the right thing

[restingpieces]

I know I don't have to tell my side to all and sundry but you know when you feel angry when people just don't know shi* about what really goes on.

 

I completely understand this. It was pretty much 85% of the reason why I cried as hard as I did last night. It got back to me all the horrible things he had been claiming about our relationship - things I know that obviously aren't true - but perhaps, he has to say them alleviate his guilt.

 

People will never know what really goes on behind closed doors. So, forget them. Especially a 14 y/o on Facebook.

[mca1975]

I completely understand this. It was pretty much 85% of the reason why I cried as hard as I did last night. It got back to me all the horrible things he had been claiming about our relationship - things I know that obviously aren't true - but perhaps, he has to say them alleviate his guilt.

 

People will never know what really goes on behind closed doors. So, forget them. Especially a 14 y/o on Facebook.

 

Too true. too true.