mca1975 Posted April 12, 2010 Share Posted April 12, 2010 I don't feel emotional today about, I feel angry. Angry at what I have realised and how I had let it become. It was all so subtle. You really can feel someone's neediness and the more I felt it, the more I gave in and didnt do things for myself until I felt I had no life. And what does he do when I explain this to him? He said it's my problem and nothing to do with him because he always said I could go out. Well thanks Master Key Keeper. No I'm sorry that's not how it should be, you don't just turn around and say that when you care about how someone feels, when you love someone. I even asked him a few times to reassure me and make me really believe that, but he didnt. Everything has been about him, even more since we lost the baby. Sure, he was nice for a week or two and supportive, but then it changed back again to being about him and his struggles, because he has so many (NOT). He has a mother that dotes on him to the point where he cannot have his own life, he has a nice car - but he dislikes his job. Well don't we all? He let me choose which DVD we watch and things like that, but my life was turning into looking after him, just as his mum's life has become. He is turning into his mother and that is a scary thought. Hindsight is a wonderful thing isn't it and the funny thing now is that he has totally calmed down on trying to get me back as if he feels "she's on to me", "she knows my game" - its weird! Can you ever really know someone? I suppose not until being with them for about 1.5 years. I guess I will have some days where I miss our closeness, the cuddles, affection and the company, but that is better than feeling so unhappy day by day. Link to comment
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