Anotherday Posted April 5, 2010 Share Posted April 5, 2010 All I can do is cry and feel like I want to throw up. I am angry, I am dreading his death. While I know hospice is good for him, it doesn't feel good for me. I always thought he'd just fall ill end up in the hospital and die. He's had Alzeimhers now for so many years and it's just been so long. To top matters off, I called an ex BF for support on Friday and another woman called him so he got me off the phone. Then I reached out to someone else in a support group I go to and he blew me off. My friend who won't stop drinking is in the hospital with pancreatitis. I just don't feel like I can handle any of this alone! I spent another holiday alone and just drank wine and slept. I am at my wit's end, completely alone, trying to deal with my own unemployment, my dad dying, no decent friends, the only decent ones live elsewhere. I just feel so sick. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crazyaboutdogs Posted April 5, 2010 Share Posted April 5, 2010 Oh, I am so sorry (((((hugs))))). It is rough when you feel you have nobody to turn to. Your friend is the least of your worries right now...because your friend has made the choice to drink. Right now focus on your father and yourself. Can you talk to someone at the hospice and see if they can find a support group for you? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anotherday Posted April 5, 2010 Author Share Posted April 5, 2010 Oh, I am so sorry (((((hugs))))). It is rough when you feel you have nobody to turn to. Your friend is the least of your worries right now...because your friend has made the choice to drink. Right now focus on your father and yourself. Can you talk to someone at the hospice and see if they can find a support group for you? Thanks, I found a support group here. I just want to know what it means now that he is going into hospice. I am so angry and sad and sick to my stomach. I am so angry at my friend and not going to go see her in the hospital. She broke her leg while drunk over Thanksgiving and now this over Easter. I've had it with her. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anotherday Posted April 5, 2010 Author Share Posted April 5, 2010 Well, I found out what it means according to the hospice that will be providing care - six months or less left to live. This is going to be very hard going through this alone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sanesoul Posted April 5, 2010 Share Posted April 5, 2010 I'm so sorry you are going through all this without a support system. I don't understand your BF at all. That was a very cold way to treat you in your emotional state. Anyway, don't want to go off in a tangent about that, but know that if nothing else, we here at ENA are here for you. I would look into therapy as well to help you get through this rough time. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anotherday Posted April 5, 2010 Author Share Posted April 5, 2010 I'm so sorry you are going through all this without a support system. I don't understand your BF at all. That was a very cold way to treat you in your emotional state. Anyway, don't want to go off in a tangent about that, but know that if nothing else, we here at ENA are here for you. I would look into therapy as well to help you get through this rough time. Thank you, I guess there is a reason he is an ex. Cold, indeed. I do see a therapist - tomorrow. Meanwhile, I am going to learn all I can as to prepare myself for the inevitable. I must be strong for my mother. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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