Bit freaked out

[redherring]

Yo;

 

I'm a bit freaked out at how angry I am tonight.

I don't normally drink, and even when I do I've never felt like this before.

 

I'm so, so, so, angry with the people who I feel have wronged me tonight. Specifically I am angry with my ex boyfriend and another girl who is tangled in the situation between us. Its quite complicated, I've posted about it on other threads if you're interested in the background. (It isn't pretty...)

 

Thing is, tonight I feel SO angry... its not like I have reason for it. My friend and I did not discuss the matter in much detail (he asked if I'd spoken to my ex recently, that was all) but I'm really freaked out at how angry I feel tonight. I think what really freaks me out is how calm I can appear despite my anger. Its quite overwhelming... I feel like I'm in control of it, which I guess is a good thing(?)

 

... I guess I'm freaked out just by HOW strong it is, there doesn't seem to be a reason for it to be so overwhelming tonight more than any other night.

 

I've been a lot more drunk like this and had massive rants about it but just never seemed to feel this angry. I need an outlet for this anger but I don't know how/what is an appropriate way to go about it.

[yonkeehoi]

Drinking that's causing you to react unexpectedly or, for you, what seems out of character? Not a good sign. Stop drinking.