Am I depressed? Thoughts please..

[Lola55]

I don't know if this means I am clinically depressed but maybe some input from outsiders perspectives will help...this has been my life for the past while...

 

I am functioning in my life. Going to work, school, and I have a field placement on top of it. I go through the motions but I have been feeling detached from it all. I am 26 years old. I still live at home because I am still in school and I don't want to be at home, at all. I worry about my finances all the time. I am graduating soon and don't have a job lined up. And on top of it all, I met a guy last summer who lives on another continent and I am still in love with him and it kills me more and more each day. I have no money to go (I've spent so much on just talking to him since I've been home...totally irrational and not like me) and see him and it's all I want to do. Then the other side of me thinks maybe he just represents something I've been wanting for a long time...to be loved. Maybe I am just afraid of being alone? But then when he makes me feel loved, it helps me get through my day. It's so messed up.

 

These thoughts race through my mind every day, all day. I am so confused about my life, and myself. I don't know where to go or what to do. I feel like crying a lot.

 

I know that a lot of people who are depressed sleep all day, or can't get to work. It's not like that for me. Although, I can go to bed really early and not wake until the afternoon. And in the mornings when I have to get up for work or school, I am exhausted still (even if I went to sleep early) and wish I could stay in bed.

 

Please tell me what you all think.

[Dako]

I think three things:

 

Your situation is probably a situation that would be depressing to anyone.

Clinical depression would be diagnosed by a professional.

I hope you feel better in time.

[Puddincup]

I think most colleges have counselors and perhaps you should go talk to one of them. If you want to cry a lot and stay in bed all day, it sounds like depression. I'm not an expert though, only someone who has had depression throughout my life. I too have always managed to do what I needed to do: school, work, other obligations, etc. yet have struggled to feel good and have energy. Therapy helps and medication is a life saver. I believe that people's chemicals can get out of whack and medication can put them back into balance. Anyway, you should go talk to a professional.