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[One day]

Why do you want to start playing games now!!

[Snowy]

It's safe to say I don't love you.

 

But something I realized just then: if anything reminded me of you, it would be the smell of your perfume. When I think about that, you're really all about vanity and external appearance. That was probably the only reason I liked you.

[soybeans]

You're pathetic.

 

I don't need to be so sad over someone who treated me like you did.

 

Tired of playing the victim. Tired of missing someone who couldn't care less about me.

[TheCuteFairy]

You slapped my face by saying: you dont love me anymore and that no more spark between us just right after we make love. Considering that i was just arrived from work abroad... UNFAIR! I didnt go away far from the family for vacation nor tourism but to work hard and support you and our 4 kids.

 

Beyond my imagination that you can do it to me for as far as i know youre a loving husband and a loving father but everything twisted. I suggested of giving a little space in our relation being husband and wife for 22 yrs but you declined by telling that what you need is a total separation. So shocking... without any reason?

 

I confronted you heart to heart if there is any 3rd party involved while I am away for work but you lied to the max, you just simply told me you wanted to have time for yourself alone.

 

Though our relationship was turned shaky that time but i dont have any choice but to go back for work abroad, bcoz i am not ready to stay for good. This is suppose to be the responsibilty of the husband to work and feed the family but i did it without complain bcoz i am more professional than you, besides i love you and our kids very much.

 

4 months after our grave misunderstanding you brought your GF at home and introduced to our kids as their second mom. You dared to hurt the feelings of our young children. Our 11 y.o son told me that 2 nights he was not able to sleep.

 

What can i do more? Oftentimes i am thinking to end my life to end my sufferings but I counter all these bad thoughts through prayers. Few months after i found myself very weak and sick in other country but still working to earn for our living and waiting for the right to talk to you personally hoping that everything can be fix still. When I was granted for a vacation after 1 year of our mis understanding and NC, i thought everything was been healed thru time but of reverse, bcoz as we talk personally... your voice echoed in the room of anger! Your face seems unrecognizable...

 

???

 

I am still on the way of trusting myself and loving myself more than before.

 

Wish you the best in your new chosen life... May God will give us merit in heaven.

[Robin2904]

I'm having a bad day and for some reason all its doing is making me think of you. I can't even explain how much I hate that. This shouldn't still be happening at this point. I don't get it, I probably need some sort of therapy at this point now, I'm convinced of it. I really don't want you at this point....I don't, but it's like my mind still thinks of you, thinks of the past. I can't even put it in to words. My thoughts of you are so messed up. I honestly don't think I want you anymore, I really just think part of me wants you to want me. I think that's the part of me that's been wanting that for a year and a half. It's sick and twisted but I think that's what it is. The fact that you DON'T want me...it's like crushing my ego or something, idk....because I'm almost convinced if you DID want me still and I knew I could have you back I wouldn't want you. Messed up isn't it? IDK....I'm just thinking out loud here really. I don't know anything anymore. This day is not going my way and I'm seriously doubting every single aspect of my life, if you can really call it that. It's more like an existence because it seriously is not going anywhere. And every time I think I should do something to change my life, better myself....then I think 'whats the point?' my family makes me feel like a failure a lot of the time. I just feel...like CRAP. And it makes me miss you, or rather miss when I was with you, mostly because I had things together in my life more then I do now. Now...I just don't know....

[Raphiella]

I miss you so much. I miss you hugging me tightly in bed. I miss you kissing me good night and good morning. I miss everything we had together.

 

... but it was all one sided. YOU cheated on me. YOU made this happen. YOUR the reason my confidence and self esteem has been crushed. I didn't stop loving you, but this is all YOUR fault. If you had said no, we would be living together right now and possibly even be engaged.

Because of what YOU did, I'm hurting... and you had the choice to say no. You made the wrong decision and you knew the pain it would inflict on me... but you did it anyway.

 

I will never hate you. I will never forget you. I hope I can forgive you truly one day.

 

I'll always be here for you because your punishment and consiquence for your terrible mistake is losing me... the best thing that was in your life. I would've never let you down. I loved you more than you could ever know... and you lost it.

 

So when I think about how lonely my life seems without you, I think that I would rather feel this lonely than know that I'm with someone who doesn't respect me and who cheated on me. I don't doubt you loved me. Life and emotions are so complex, but one thing that I am SURE of, is that you definitetly had no respect for me.

[sunshineband]

I'm here again. Maybe I won't be stopping by as much, and maybe you won't hear from me as often. The pain inside me has changed from a gut-wrenching non-stop hurt, to a dull ache with sudden acute pain when something flares up. So yes, I am moving on a bit.

 

I took M & H roller-skating again today. The last two times I did that, in February and at Easter, we were together and were in the middle of text conversations and planning our next times together and enjoying being a couple. Today, I was there with no text messages to look at on my phone, no visits to plan, nothing to look forward to. But I survived because I realise that I don't need you. I really don't.

 

Amazingly I have reached the point when I can look back on our time together and realise that it is the past. I think I shall treasure the good times, I don't have it in me to throw the baby out with the bathwater. Good memories are just that - good memories. You did say I "compartmentalise" the past and I shall do that with you. Put you in a box split in half. In one side there will be "my lovely A" with the happy stuff, and in the other will be "A Porner" the cheating, lying addicted fool.

[soybeans]

I miss knowing you. I miss you in my life.

[Chryan]

The further you go with him, the less I'll want to be with you.

 

You tell me there's no hope on the same breath as you say you wish you could run back. My begging and crying makes it worse but I can see the pain in your eyes and the guilt of you giving yourself to someone else when I'm still gasping for your love like it's my air.

 

After TWO days you start to cry and miss me when I go no contact... why do you push yourself on someone else when you know you're going to want me again if I go much longer, it's not the first time. For either of us.

 

3 of the most important years of my life...becoming memories filled with sighs and tears.

[Zohariel]

I'm still in love with you, and tonight, I will miss you with no shame.

[J1535]

Missing you pretty badly this morning, I wish things could be like they used to be. I want you back in my life, I want the future we were supposed to have together. Today is going to be a hard day

[crashboombang]

I am facing a weekend alone. I miss you so much it is killing me.. yet I know you are probably not thinking about me anymore.. why did you do this to me? We had our whole lives together to look forward to ... why did you do this?

[lilybeam]

I met an old boyfriend tonight. He still likes me. He has put the ball in my court in terms of getting back in touch. I remember why I liked him. Life does indeed go on, whatever happens. Life goes on and thank goodness for that!

[Tom1990]

I'm so damn tired of missing you. You've got to be missing me too. Just get it overwith and message me. The past is passed.

[quirky]

You know..my feelings are changing. I doubt you care enough but maybe it's good for me. Maybe I will love you again as a person one day. But I'm not sure because I feel so let down by you. I am so surprised you haven't reached out at all. And posting pictures with that gorilla toy and making it come to life is stuff I do so again you copy me like you did before.

 

On one hand I wonder what your life is like without me on another I don't care. You made me not care. I wonder if you're happy about that. Maybe it's best this way. Funny how love becomes this shadow, you were so important to me.

[soybeans]

I feel indifferent about you. My sister is coming to visit this weekend, and I know I could easily go on her phone to look at your FB since she still has you added. She won't ever tell me what you're up to. But you know what? I just don't want to know. Maybe because I'm scared of what I will find, like last time. I know there will be check-in's, photos, girls you have added, and comments from them. Even though I'm curious in a way, I'd rather just protect my heart and keep going with "what I don't know can't hurt me" saying.

 

I think about if you were to ever reach out. For such a long time I was desperate for contact from you, thinking of what I would say...now I don't even want it anymore. It would be pointless. It has truly just been too long. Plus, something inside of me tells me that it just will not ever happen anyway.

 

I wish I had a love interest...someone to feel giddy about. Or you know, any kind of social interaction outside of work and school.

 

I know I called you pathetic but, don't you think I'm the pathetic one here?

[soalone21]

I miss you so much. I love you so much. My heart is totally hurt. I need you I am going through so much I am so use to coming to you when I am going thru things and now I have no one. I have no one to come over and kiss me and mk me feel better. No shoulder to cry on. The only reason you even act like u care about me is bc of ur son. I am so hurt I use to be the one you was totally into you would never let me leave thru all the bs you put me thru and now after 4 years you let me while I was preg. We havent had sex in 9 months tomorrow and you still telling me that you not having sex with no one but I know that is a lie. I love my son. I do but i just wish I was not connected to you for the rest of my life this is a lesson learned that no matter what I will not care about someone else well being more than I care about my own. I miss u. I really need someone right now.

[csharpminor]

I miss you saying "goodnight, love" and kissing me on the forehead before caressing me as we fall asleep. Now I'm going to wipe the tear from my eye and go to sleep. Alone.

[lilybeam]

I miss you saying "goodnight, love" and kissing me on the forehead before caressing me as we fall asleep. Now I'm going to wipe the tear from my eye and go to sleep. Alone.

 

Hey, you aren't alone. There are people on this forum who are going through it too, with you. And even when you are feeling alone isn't the same as lonely. I have well and truly been there more than once. The aloneness is creating space for the person you'll be with next.

[martyfarty]

i hate you, b.i.t.c.h.

[csharpminor]

Hey, you aren't alone. There are people on this forum who are going through it too, with you. And even when you are feeling alone isn't the same as lonely. I have well and truly been there more than once. The aloneness is creating space for the person you'll be with next.

 

Thanks so much. You made me feel a bit better

[J1535]

God I miss you tonight. Just got home from the show we should have gone to together. I am fighting the urge to text you right now. Haven't spoken to you in almost a week. What could you possibly be up to? I wish you would text me, just so I know you are thinking about me still. I feel like you've forgotten me already. I haven't forgotten about you, not even close

[discouraged]

This is the first weekend since our BU. How've you been? Have you even thought about us? about me? I know that you've been going out and partying all the time... did you already find someone else? All I've been doing is studying for school, reading books to learn about programming, and be depressed every night. Ive been keeping an eye on my phone just in case you call, especially if you're ever in trouble. however, i know you're never going to call. Id be the LAST person you'd ever contact again if you are ever in trouble... but why? how did it end up like this? If you wanted to break up with me, why did you not mention anything to me until it was over? I broke it off with you a few times, but you wouldn't let me go. how did you all of a sudden change your mind? i have lots of questions and thoughts running through my mind and every night/morning, it gets ridiculously hard... how can you just forget about me? when did i stop being an importance to you? i just hate how you dragged it out this far... it makes me wonder if you ever really cared about me, or just wanted me there to support you because you were going through difficult times throughout the relationship. It was only recently where your life turned around for the better, but that means you should leave me behind? the one who took care of you everyday you were crying? especially those times you felt you had no friends, but i was able to plan a surprise thing for you with some of your friends??? its been 7 days since we broke up/NC, and I'm still frustrated and depressed. I miss you like crazy and keep hoping every morning you'd text me or drunk text me one night... I'm hopeless

[soalone21]

So yesterday was a very hard day for me mostly of which had nothing to do w/ u I wanted to contact you so bad to make me feel better. But i didnt but u called me to ask about the baby diapers and I couldnt hold mmy sadness in I cried and I asked you soething I was trying my hardest not to ask I asked you were u having sex with some1 else and u wouldnt asnwer I asked like 5 times. All the other times I asked you told me no. I cant blv it. I wonder how long its been going on. I am so sad. I am so confused. but I have to get myself together.

[soalone21]

I barely ate yesterday bc my feelings was so hurt about what was said to me and now w/ him having sex with someone else...I am so sad.