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[sadandalone]

It's getting towards the afternoon and you are all I can seem to think about....I want to hear your voice so bad or just to see a text from you, but I know it isn't going to happen so I am going to be strong today and make it through this day without contacting you at all.....we were so good together, but it all was a lie....you used me and played with my emotions....I will get back to me one day and it will be because of me, not YOU!!

[laxster]

I hate how you got me wrapped around your finger but I won't admit it.

 

I hate how it wasn't suppose to be like this, that you were only supposed to be my friend.

 

I hate how I've fallen for you.

 

I hate how I'm looking at every little detail that you do.

 

I hate how I can't read your mind.

 

Never before has someone like you entered my life, and you've had a meaningful and deep impact on me.

[sadandalone]

I honestly loved you....did anything for you.....wanted a life with you.......and you used me......WHY!!!!! What did I do to deserve this....I need to know.....

[DailyDreamer]

Why are you talking to her instead of me? You always said how you wanted to talk and when the opportunity presents itself...you choose her?

I go out of my way to be attentive and always be there and show you support the best way I can. Why do I bother? I hate how my heart makes decisions while my mind is MIA. Why do I love you so much? Why do I care?

You make me weak and I don't like the person I have become. What happens to me when I am given crumbs to exist off while you do as you please. You make life an uphill climb as I struggle to keep you in it. I'd do anything for you and yet, you'd do nothing for me. I say this aloud and have the answers, yet I still don't get it. Will I ever?

[soru]

Yesterday was the 16th. The day we always celebrated being our anniversary. I knew it was the beginning of the end when you decided to hang out with your friends instead of spend time with me on the 16th of last month. The girl I once knew would have NEVER had done that. You don't care anymore and I see that now. But this pain that I'm feeling? At least it shows that I really did love you. Something that I still feel even now, despite the cold hearted person you've become. I need to throw out these feelings because all its doing is bringing me this horrible pain in my heart thats burning a massive hole into me.

 

I want someone new to come and save me from my suffering. Someone who will love me for being the loving partner that I am. That was something you could no longer do or appreciate.

[Meriem]

I saw the exes name on twitter, one of my friends @ replied to him, I was like "WHAT? my heart skipped a beat then I quickly scrolled down, I can proudly say, I never checked his, facebook or twitter since the breakup and every now and then I see his name on twitter I feel "damit why did I see that" but my day continues normally and soon I forget about it..

You don't deserve any mental energy I wasted on you, there's no point in thinking about anything that happened between us cuz it's in the past and it's totally pointless to think about it, thinking about it has done me nothing . NOTHING (excet maybe realize how foolishly I let you treat me badly! AND MADE ME REALISE I'M BETTER OFF) So yes, I'd rather spend my mental energy on something productive, goodbye you not so special guy, you're nothign new, ordinary! And there are SO many people out there better than you, who will actually realize what they got when they get me and won't ever lose me

[blackhawks1287]

You have no idea how bad I just want to tell you all of the lies you kept from me, the bull * * * * that I assumed was going on which is why I stopped buying you those cute things, especially not getting anything for our anniversary or your birthday in the last six months. I want to tell you I found out so many things and this weight that I have sucks. Everyone preaches NC to heal, but I feel like I have healed. I don't shame you for what you did, you did what was best, like I always did during our relationship. I refuse to believe complacency is bad. Why have an overhead to live up to...to expect. My life is good. I am happy. I don't need people to make me happy, but I enjoy company to socialize when it is wanted.

 

It sucks to think back on our relationship and think I was just paying for the dinners and movies like you were some escort who gave me sex whenever I wanted it, on my terms. Being each others distractions or emotional crutch. What is sad is I think I just got addicted to the sex, the attention, but I never really needed it. It was nice, I enjoyed and loved every minute of it. But I wonder if I loved the attention or if I loved you. Being that I met and got close with your family I feel like I loved what we shared together, it had to have been real. I am not sad it is over. I am still a little hurt from the deceit. If you were honest with me...I wouldn't have this grudge. It is sad to think of you in this light, but reflection has been demoralizing to me.

[ohsweetlove11]

A,

 

You're here in town... I wish I could see you. I miss you so much right now. There's so much I want to tell you I'm a wreck today knowing you're actually here... probably with her, too. So i'm beside myself right now. I feel very empty. I miss you.

[hausser]

Day 16 - don't miss you so bad today.

 

Hav unblocked you from Fb, your profile isnt all lovey dovery so thats one good sign.

 

Am starting to get quite bitter about you leaving me with the dog. I love him to bits but he needs so much attention he's starting to piss me off.

[Ski]

You treated me horribly near the end. Why the &$^# did I put up with you for so long? I feel so stupid. It's been 6 months ... that's like what - 5% of the time we were together? The wounds are barely scabbing over. I miss someone I use to date. I don't think I miss the you that you are now. At least, not the top 20 layers. I'm not sure how you justify what you did to me to others. Oh, wait, yes: "We grew apart," "we weren't compatible." Ugh, "WE" that makes me sick -- You really drove me into deep depression because you never compromised but I didn't want to lose the characteristics of you that I enjoyed so I tried so hard to go along with you and what you said you wanted and needed. The guy that I have been casually hooking up with these last couple months treats me with more respect and care than you did in the last three years of our relationship. I am beautiful and talented and smart and fun. You made me feel ugly. Inside and out. And I became ugly. Now look at me. 6 months away from your poison and I'm happier and prettier than I have been in YEARS. I don't feel the need to justify and justify and justify who I am and what I like and what I do to you. I can just BE ME. And I don't have to constantly worry that you are ignoring me and spending all of your time with HER and lying to me. I was so dumb. When I see you in a few months, I will no longer be swayed by your charisma and way with words. You can continue to lie to yourself, but you will never be able to lie to me again about who you are. I'm over the fact you dumped me and have dropped me from your life. I'll never be over the childish manner in which you left without taking any responsibility for the massive damage you did. For seven years, you were my best friend. You had no right to be crying when you left ME because you were too selfish to compromise or admit you had fallen in love with someone else. I do miss the good times we had, though. And I hope you're doing okay.

[hausser]

Beginning of day 17. Am pretty sure you won't be in touch anytime soon tbh. When it gets to the month stage I think I am out of here.

[maidenmarie]

Why couldn't you just say your feelings??? That day you told me we were done and for me not to call you no more, I listened, not like before where I chased you and as soon as you would think I had someone else you would reel me back in, I foolishly would be with you again until it would all start over............a continuing cycle of doom- but not this time I never called your butt again even though I still cared. Then who called who??? You called me, but I didn't take the bait, I didn't run to you no more, I didnt go see you when you wanted me, I left it like that............how does it feel?I know you think of me after all this time, but I am gone and now YOU suffer

[Kev0s1983]

K,

 

four months in three days since WE last spoke, maaaaaaaaaan how fast its gone right?! Granted, for the first four weeks after I was a drunk and dont really remember much but meh, whatever! I couldnt train today at boxing. Busted my knuckle Thursday night at MMA on Mike's pad, wish it was a different Mike's face and im sure you know which Mike I speak of! Not even the guy who you decided to start sleeping with whilst seeing me and carrying my baby. Nah, your brother in law Mike. What a douche. Your a douche. Your all fricking douches man! Well, apart from your mother. Shes a legend why has the apple fallen so far from the tree with you? Anyway, I only come here on weekends (lol sounds like a pick up attempt huh??) these days. I believe that I havent much to learn about whats happened - if anything ? I have accepted whats happened. Do I miss you? Yes. The good you. Who you became? No. Ofcourse not.

 

Am I healed? No. But Im getting there. I want you to make more attempts to contact me. To have you reach out, what? Four times? Five times? That made me feel good. Not as good as if they said certain things but whatever. I feel buoyed up by the fact that you broke no contact. Not me. I changed my number ages ago and live 12,000 miles away. One fact you probably know and the other? You probably know as of the end of this month seeing as we were moving out here together in June. Remember? I can smile now. I truly can. Everything happens for a reason and I am in a good place. Everything is going well for me, I could do with thinking of you less but some days are much better than others. I guess just waiting on the feelings of missing you to evaporate similar to how your honesty did. Slowly, without notifying me and totally.

 

I know you miss me. Anyone who was with another for a number of years cannot miss at least some things. It's mutual baby girl. I dont wish you any ill harm and whilst do harbor hope of a reconciliation in the future but a conditional one. ie. You turn back into the sweet loving you leaving the monster you behind with your smoking habit, lying habit, deciving habit, cheating habit... You get the idea I didnt tet you on your birthday, you would have noted it. I wonder if it made you smile or made you sad? I wonder if it simply made you wonder?

 

Im attracted to other girls again. I also feel not the slightest bit of awkwardness in feeling attractions... They say that exs contact you just as you are over them? Whilst I gues Im with the school of thought that if you *truly* loved someone, you dont ever get over them 100%, I am nearly at a point where it matters not either way. Therefore, I expect contact on July 1st.

 

Why July 1st?

 

...

 

Why not?

 

PS You will always have a small place in my heart stay special beautiful otis smotis.

[Robin2904]

It's 3:15am and I can't get my mind off of you. I hate this so much. Part of me wants to turn the hands of time back so badly- I don't know what I'm feeling these days. I just miss you like I haven't in a long time- I miss us. Everything makes me think of you and I hate it. I thought I had closure and was over these feelings. I was for a while- just seeing you, going there it messed me all up! I don't even know what to say. In one week it marks one year since our official break up. ONE FRIGGIN YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have not officially been your girlfriend in ONE YEAR! WTH??? WOW! Although we still had an unofficial relationship from July to November...it still boggles my mind. All of it. EVERYTHING we went through. Why didn't we ever give things a REAL second chance???? Oh that's right YOU didn't want to! You wanted to act like the single guy, flirt with other girls on Facebook. string me along. You did that for a long time. I know you loved me which is why you wanted me there too- but you also wanted to pretend to be 'single' It still stings me.

 

We had every chance to try again. We did. Why didn't we?? I wish I would have been more open with you, expressed things that bothered me. I have worked on that SO much- at least that was one lesson I learned from us. I'm so much more open now....I was open towards the end too- too little too late I guess. But I don't need to take all the blame. You messed up so much, hurt me in ways I can't even put into words. You lied to my face, you made me feel like you didn't even want me the last few months....that's why we fell apart the way we did. I felt like you weren't even there anymore. You weren't invested. You wanted to go out to the club, hang out with other girls who I didn't like or trust. I felt like you didn't care. I wish we had better communication. I think that was one of the reasons we fell apart so bad- and I admit that was on me. But you were not an easy person to deal with- I should have gotten an award for putting up with your crap for as long as I did.

 

I know you won't be happy. Your never going to find someone who is going to deal with you, put up with your bull, and truly love you with their whole heart regardless of your flaws. I really did love you....more then I can even put into words. I loved you issues and all, I loved the person I saw beneath all that stuff. All the walls you put up- I saw beyond them. When you let me in and I saw you, the real you- I loved that person. I hadn't seen that person in a long long time, but I still love that guy. Not the guy who let me cry without so much as tear, who laughed at me with a cocky cold laugh, not the guy who treated me like a stranger in January and let me walk away. The guy who waited 2 weeks to even see if I was okay. The guy who replaced me in less then a month. I really don't love that guy, and if that's why you are now...I don't love him.

 

I love and miss the guy who looked at me like I was the most amazing thing he ever saw. The guy who showed me so much love, who worried for me, who would send me good morning texts and tell me how much he missed me. The guy who always wanted to make me sandwiches for lunch. The guy who would wait for me as I got off the bus and give me the most amazing hugs. The guy who would always want to hold my hand, even when we were in the car. The guy who would point to his cheek as he was driving asking for a kiss. The guy who kissed me on the forehead. The guy who would cry for me, who would let me in. Tell me his secrets, show me a part of himself- whether it was your childhood, your mother, the anger you feel for your father. How you always felt different....the guy who showed me his vulnerable side. I love that guy more then anything, and I miss that's the guy so much.

 

I felt like- and still feel like to a degree that no one in this world knew you better. I do still feel like that. Every time you let me in I felt like I saw a piece of you that no one else ever saw. And I still feel like even though all this time has passed I knew you best. I don't know you now anymore....I don't want to know the guy you are now. He's so much colder and he obviously doesn't love me anymore. Hurts but it's the truth.

 

I still sometimes do hope that we can get back what we had...that the old you will come back. I know I need to give that up- I had for like 5 minutes. Just everything brought me back...it brought it all back to me, being up there, seeing you....but nothing is going to turn back time. I just have to work on living my life and moving on. I just wish I could turn my feelings off again.

[SilverMoon]

I knew you weren't right for me when we got together, but you fell in love with me and i wanted you for so long and i loved how you loved me, so i said yes. It was amazing. The most amazing love and feeling and togetherness, a whole year of it. sure it was hard, LDR's are never easy, and sure I made mistakes and wish the times I was down i turned to a friend instead of always turning to you - i wish i had shown you more of the good and made you feel amazing always. i don't know what i was thinking coming here. how do you go from ldr to moving overseas - doomed from the start. a year of hell. good times, bad times, hurtful words, fights like i never knew we could know. i regret not laying a better foundation for us, for rushing things and not taking the time to build. and i know you were scared and probably started resenting me at that stage. we should have just saved our money and travelled for 3 months. we should have built a home together first. but you didn't have to lie, you didn't have to cheat, you didn't have to stop talking to me and block me out of your life. i reacted so badly, i didn't know how to communicate with you. i do now. i pushed you away, you pushed me away. why? going back home we were happy again, we should have just stayed there. i wanted to move to perth. then you found out about last year and it was a chain reaction of bad choices and moments and here we are. 4 months after i told you to leave, wanting to reconcile, wanting you back. i can't stand how you treat me. how can you say it's a break up when you are so happy around me, sleep next to me holding me like you did when you loved me, sharing wonderful moments travelling and talking and birthdays and everything that couples do. i am so so so sorry for hurting you and behaving like i did. i am ashamed by some of my actions and most of my words when i was angry. i have learnt so much about myself from you and from this experience. and now you are going away, back home. i never think things through do i, think about all the possibilities and consequences and this one, i have nothing to prepare myself except to let you go now. you have been so unfair on me, using me, taking advantage of me. do you know how it makes me feel to have you bring over your laundry or want to use my computer. that you aren't here to see me but still getting what you want and asking too much of people? how could you fool yourself into thinking i am fine with just being friends? you know i'm not. all the times i asked you to come back and cried over us in front of you and opened up with my feelings? you have feelings too. i know you do. you told me you loved me and cared about me. you held me in your arms for hours, playing with my hair, kissing my face softly. and bawling like a baby when i told you i was seeing someone else. you wanted to kill yourself, i saw the bottle sitting on the shelf when i went to your place for the first time. and that was over me. if you think having 1000 more women is going to make you happy or that you will ever meet anyone like me you are wrong. you told me iand showed me that i was the most amazing woman you had ever met, and for someone who has been with more women than anyone i know you meant it. if you hadn't found anyone like me in all that time, i doubt you will again. they all look attractive now don't they, on facebook and email. they all want a piece of you like they always did, all the married bored housewives and women from your past. so go ahead, do what you think you want to and be with them. see if they will do for you what i did. your fantasy, the feeling you have never ever had before with anyone else. you won't again. that's not me being cocky or full of myself, it's the truth. noone knows you like i do, you say i am your best friend. well you can't have that anymore. you find a new best friend, a new person to be there like i was. to love you and understand you and deal with all your wee things and insecurities and indecisiveness. people only change a little bit if at all. go have sex with all those other girls and get the attention you so badly crave and which one person is not enough to give you because you don't feel enough within yourself. i am so sorry i added to those insecurities at times but i was trying to reach you and nothing worked. so i got mad. really really out of control mad. i have to go now. i'll write more later but i am getting upset and i don't want to feel this way anymore.

[Silverbirch]

I'm starting to get over you!!!! I'm going to move onto a better life. I'm starting to look and feel good, and started doing things I've always wanted. I know you like to think you are a really nice guy, but my friends think you are a REAL joke. One of them laughed and said: "Who does this guy think he is? Fabio, the great lover??" My 75 year old conservative mother said - with a completely straight face - she would rather that I was with another woman than with you or another man who treats me the way you have around the time of the breakup.

 

I'm working on myself. I know I wasn't perfect - who is? I'm changing - not for you - for me. Maybe one day there will be another man there - if I find one I think is up to par. If not, I'm going to be happy on my own. I know I can take care of myself - especially if I don't have a selfish King Baby there sucking the life blood out of me and trying to pull me down to his level.

 

Ciao!

[Robin2904]

I'm really bothered by this. I look at pictures of the girl you replaced me with- even though I know I shouldn't do that....but I can't help it- and as I look at her I can't help but think WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU???? I mean I even saw her in person, and I know I sound like a biatch to say this but she is NOTHING compared to me!!! Just EWWW! She looks like a damn killer! She's so ugly! In all the pics she has on District- she looks terrible! She never smiles, looks like a goth angry girl. I KNOW I am SOOOO much cuter then her! HELL even you told me that when we spoke a few weeks ago! You basically said she didn't know how to dress, had no confidence in herself (Obviously! Look how she dresses!) And she isn't stylish LIKE ME! At least you know that but WHAT THE HELL! You replaced me with THAT???? It actually pisses me off that you gave up on ME, on US for THAT!!!! It's like you chose a hamburger over filet mignon because compared to her I am friggin rack of lamb!! I don't understand! And she was apparently a biatch or so you said. I really don't understand....and it hurts me that you chose her over me.

 

But you two are no more now. It makes me happy in a way- but realllllllyyyy hurts me that you still don't want me. That's okay. Go out there and find some other hideous girl who is insecure, HAS A KID- because YES I saw that your rebound HAD A KID! That was something you even told me- that you could NEVER take on another man's baby but you dated a friggin girl with a KID? WHAT? I don't even understand!!! Your family must have had a FIELD day with that!! I could hear your mom's reaction to her having a kid! I'm sure it wasn't a good one! I just shake my head....but go ahead and find another girl like that because that's ALL your gonna find! Your never going to find someone as amazing as me! I think deep down you know it. I KNOW I'm gorgeous. I put a lot of effort into my appearance, the way I dressed. Those things used to bother you- you would call me 'high maintenance' but now I know you see what 'Low maintenance' looks like you are saying to yourself 'SHOOT she's no Robin!'

 

I KNOW you compared us- especially when you saw me. You had to have! And maybe the best revenge was looking amazing! I know I turned heads that night- I know she saw me too and was probably thinking 'That's his ex?' I kind of feel bad for her in a way. I saw what she was wearing. She looked crappy. I hope you ate your damn heart out!!!

 

But good luck with those girls! Eventually- if you haven't already- you'll realize you won't get better then me! Maybe you just don't want to go back, repeat the past, try again because of how bad it ended- you know what I get that. But your gonna realize I am the best thing that ever happened to you, and that letting us go was the worst mistake you ever made. And maybe one day you'll want us again....maybe you won't....but if you do I hope I wont be here waiting for you! So good luck with skany girls who are butt ugly, I can't wait to laugh at the next gross girl you date. Have fun with skanks because thats all your gonna get!!

[Carus]

You're going into your last semester at Uni. Soon you will graduate. I was always very proud of you for that. Congrats.

 

I read a lot of stories where people occasionally hear from their ex's, but considering your rebound actually worked out, I wanna thank you for never contacting me*

 

I'll see you in dreams anyway where we still laugh with each other and dance on the sand in the sun*

 

Hope all is well.

Carus* 8-)

[hausser]

Boy Carus, that post got me a little "emotional" lol.

[Carus]

Heh....sry bout that....It comes from a place of acceptance...The calm after the storm if you will*

 

There's no goodbyes....only love*

 

8-)

[hausser]

No problems man, I had a dream about mine last night, real vivid woke up thinking she was lying next to me lol.

[sadandalone]

Well you have totally devastated me now.....you changed your number....guess you feel good about using me like you did and made me out to be the bad person by kicking you out of my house, after I was the one that did any and everything for you......only for you to say that I didn't understand or accept that you needed to spend the night at your ex's so you could be with your son......

 

You let a good thing go and I am going to one day get back to the happy person I used to be before I met you......We had dreams and plans for the future....well I am going to do my best to continue with those plans without you and become who I know I can become.....

 

I really and truly loved you for you....and honestly I still do.....

[Meriem]

I feel heartbroken all over again, I talked to you today and it served me so much better when I still hated your guts, I don't think you're a nice guy I don't think your bad, but you were terrible to ME, I don't understand you I guess I never will, I feel so much pain, after texting you I went to sleep I just wanted out of this world I'm so sick of this and the relationship, it has changed me in so many ways I never saw the dark side of the world before, I never knew depression or real emotional pain, it hurts so bad and it feels like it's never going to end, two years passed since we first got together, and during so many times in those two years I felt the exact same way I feel now, I feel like I lost hope I have no fight in me I don't wanna push myself to move on I'm sick and tired and I'm hopeless, it's a bad time to be alive, I don't believe in anything

[sadandalone]

I only asked one thing of you....to be home every night.....I guess that was too much for you...you and your cheating and lying ways......I gave you everything....now I am left here with wondering why I was treated this way.....why you did this to me...why you lied and told me you loved me and that we would have a life together....

 

I don't want to be anymore....

[hello678]

No problems man, I had a dream about mine last night, real vivid woke up thinking she was lying next to me lol.

 

werd ive occasionally being having these.

 

No breakage of the NC yet mate?