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I have been feeling severely depressed, i'm turning 22 and still live with my parents, I have been depressed for a very long time and I did try to OD in late 2006, but after that didn't work I had a impefiny, what would happen to my family,parents and friends.

 

anyways I just feel the same and now I actually think that I may die young, Not for a while but i'm scared that I may attempt again.

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I've been where you're at, I was 23. I needed a reason to live. I found one by seeing a counselor once a week, being completely honest about everything, and ceasing to care what other people thought of me, even family and friends. By doing this I allowed myself to discover what I really wanted and it was motivating, I wanted to live long enough to do it.

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I know how you feel. It's like you feel no one else cares and that you are alone. You wonder what the world would be like without you and think that you absence wouldn't make a difference. When I went through depression I went to sleep every night hoping I wouldn't wake up. Or even that I would get hit by a drunk driver. These are the kinds of thoughts I had but I never thought about the actual action of suicide....People really do care about you and love you. I'm sure the hearts of many would feel empty without you here. Please talk to a counselor or someone because it helped me so much. Be strong, it will get better!

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i've sometimes felt like you...so i read a lot about many things to try and find happiness within.....one thing that really helped me change my mentality, is the story i am copying and pasting below....i loved it....i apply it....IT WORKS!!!!!!!

 

According to an ancient Sufi story, there lived a king in some Middle Eastern land who was continuously torn between happiness and despondency. The slightest thing would cause him great upset or provoke an intense reaction, and his happiness would quickly turn into disappointment and despair. A time came when the king finally got tired of himself and of life, and he began to seek a way out.

 

He sent for a wise man who lived in his kingdom and who was reputed to be enlightened. When the wise man came, the king said to him, “I want to be like you. Can you give me something that will bring balance, serenity and wisdom into my life? I will pay any price that you ask.”

 

The wise man said, “I may be able to help you. But the price is so great that your entire kingdom would not be sufficient payment for it. Therefore it will be a gift to you if you will honor it.” The king gave his assurance, and the wise man left.

 

A few weeks later, he returned and handed the king an ornate box carved in jade. The king opened the box and found a simple gold ring inside. Some letters were inscribed on the ring. The inscription read: This, Too, Will Pass. “What is the meaning of this?” Asked the king. The wise man said, “Wear this ring always. Whatever happens, before you call it good or bad, touch this ring and read the inscription. That way you will always be at peace.”

 

This, Too, Shall Pass.

 

What is it about these simple words that makes them so powerful? Looking at it superficially, it would seem while those words may provide some comfort in a bad situation, they would also diminish the enjoyment of the good things in life. “Don’t be too happy, because it won’t last.” This seems to be what they are saying when applied in a situation that is perceived as good.

 

Those words inscribed in the ring are not telling you that you should not enjoy the good in your life, nor are they merely meant to provide some comfort in times of suffering. They have a deeper purpose: to make you aware of the fleetingness of every situation, which is due to the transience of all forms — good or bad. When you become aware of the transience of all forms, your attachment to them lessens, and you disidentify from them to some extent.

 

Being detached does not mean that you cannot enjoy the good that the world has to offer. In fact, you enjoy it more. Once you see and accept the transience of all things of the world while they last without fear of loss or anxiety about the future. When you are detached, you gain a higher vantage point from which to view the events in your life instead of being trapped inside them.

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Yeah, isolation is often a rough spot for me.

 

When I get really down I make sure I am well-fed, rested, and have access to quality people. These things are essential for me to even begin to feel better.

 

Asking for help is good. Connecting with other quality people is good.

 

I am not sure if I was suicidal before ... if I ever really was gonna do it. But I have thought about it!! God knows that I took extra risks during those periods that could have killed me.

 

The change which occurred for me was a change in beliefs. Cynically at first, I decided that if life ain't worth living for ... it sure ain't worth dying for. I didn't feel a whole lot better right away, but I went on from there with a newly found notion of living for me. Its funny, years later I am just overwhelmed and mystified with magic of existence. I am truly happy.

 

But two things haven't changed: Life is still sometimes hard (uh, very hard sometimes) and I always can keep working for more. I think that accepting these two things brought me peace. I got busy. I sought change. It took time and work. It was a process. And it was only through trial and error did I find faith in that process.

 

It is not at all uncommon for a 22 year-old to live with parents these days!!! ... or really at any time in history!! Can you think of any benefits or positive things about this living situation you are in? And sure it has its down sides, too. I love my parents, but being around them regularly or for long periods of time adds stress.

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Another thing I forgot to add to my last post....I don't know how old you are/ if you are in school/ have a job...but one thing that helped me SO MUCH was getting a new job. I work in retail, so it's a really fun and laid back environment. There's always cool music and positive people around, so I've learned to love going to work and it keeps me busy and my mind off things too! I'm so sad to leave my store in a week though to go back to school!

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I've been where you're at, I was 23. I needed a reason to live. I found one by seeing a counselor once a week, being completely honest about everything, and ceasing to care what other people thought of me, even family and friends. By doing this I allowed myself to discover what I really wanted and it was motivating, I wanted to live long enough to do it.

 

I one thousand percent agree with her.

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