dealing with affair after break up

[sean91607306444]

for those that have been following my dilemma,my gf broke up with me just before new years eve.and within days she was in a sexual relationship with another man..well atleast he thinks he is...anyways,i went and had some affairs of my own,and after 2 months of seperation we have satrted seeing each other again,but not like we were before.we had sex once and she was apologetic and understanding and said that the affair ment nothing to her and that she was just trying to forget about me,etc etc.after sex she turned totally cold toward me once again,and we were back to square one.we started to reconsile again,and friday she was totally back on (censored)mode.she saw a picture of a girl that was interested in me from yahoo personals,she didnt show it but it angered her,she went out friday nite and stayed out until 5 am.she said she had a new client (shes a theraputic massuse),and that he was a rich musican with a big house etc etc..(im a musican)and she made it a point...sat nite i spent with her..she made it a point to tell me about this guy and she ended up having sex with him,and that she wasnt going to have sex with me because i disgust her and im ugly all of the sudden,and bla bla bla.i dont know what her problem is?im getting the feeling that she made this guy up or made it more then it was,because she was upset about seeing the picture of that girl.she loves me,but shes being so misleading,and everytime i dont contact her for a few days she starts calling me and being nice like everything is cool...i love her and dont undferstand what it is shes going through..any suggestions?

[mermayd]

sean, sean, sean, what are you doing? This girl has some issues that she needs to work through and she is taking you along for the ride. She is killing you inside and you need to not let her take advantage of you the way she is doing. Please, for your own sake, leave this girl behind. I understand that your feelings for her are deep, but you are so unhappy and that is absolutley uncalled for. You need to let yourself be happy. and being with her is only making things worse and more dramatic and more painful. She has hurt you over and over. Whether or not she really did sleep with this guy is not even that relevant. the fact that she told you only to hurt you is awful. horrible! You really need to move forward in your life and look for happiness within yourself. You do not need to waste your time on a person that will walk all over you and hurt you over and over again. I am sure there are plenty of other girls that would love to be with you and they would treat you so much better than this girl is! Leave her behind. she is not worth your time!

[sean91607306444]

i started all of this and i am responsible for the break up,i treated her like *beep* while we were together..my drinking etc,and my harsh words and attemted infedflity.