enzarto Posted May 20, 2009 Share Posted May 20, 2009 I think pain and stress, frustrate the mind and make one think very wrong. For instance, I have told myself that ;I actually hate my step-dad' several times, and the love for my real dad has dissolved for I remet him, yes, but before that, hadn't seen him in 11 years. At one time, I vividly envisioned the act of killing my step dad after being angry at him one night, and the entire circumstance that he has to be my father.....woooahh, but my good judgment has always won, since he's still alive (lol) and I appreciate he has nonetheless taken good care of me in many ways. Another example, in my first year of college, I was pretty stressed out with my roomates, they were much older than I and ganged up on me, and my esteem was next to nothing so found it hard to defend myself, I had bad motives about them too. Or the one kid in English class that just got on my nerves behind the teacher's back. Aren't I an evil heckler from the 7th underworld? Or am I just a normal guy with human evil urges subdued by the tantrum depressant called my loving side haha...I have very positive vibes too, don't miss the point. Have you or did you have dark thoughts..... Link to comment
Ellie2006 Posted May 20, 2009 Share Posted May 20, 2009 Have you or did you have dark thoughts..... All the time .... Link to comment
bewilderment Posted May 20, 2009 Share Posted May 20, 2009 my dark thoughts: I wish my husband would meet someone else so I would have an easy way out of my messy marriage. The reality is....I have to break it off and be the bad guy...and soon. Link to comment
enzarto Posted May 20, 2009 Author Share Posted May 20, 2009 the enthusiasm of our thoughts I think aren't followed through with our actions to full potential because i think a part of you knows you can't do what you think to that person because it's wrong and then a really evil part of you is like YEA dice HIM! lol. i guess that's the whole sigmund freudian balogna. sometimes i just wanted to yell at my ex, so i could bury my valid points in her cranium. then the other part of me says woah, take it easy E Link to comment
enzarto Posted May 20, 2009 Author Share Posted May 20, 2009 my dark thoughts: I wish my husband would meet someone else so I would have an easy way out of my messy marriage. The reality is....I have to break it off and be the bad guy...and soon. so crazy how deep inside you, you want something,but it turns out a civil and courtly way....it's almost (fake)?. reality you may want someone to just burn or something deep down inside but obviously you don't go set that person on fire Link to comment
Ellie2006 Posted May 20, 2009 Share Posted May 20, 2009 the enthusiasm of our thoughts I think aren't followed through with our actions to full potential because i think a part of you knows you can't do what you think to that person because it's wrong and then a really evil part of you is like YEA dice HIM! lol. As long as it doesnt become an obsession, I think having "dark thoughts" is actually a healthy way to process volatile emotions like anger/frustration. And... definitely a good way to exercise your imagination! Sometimes making up some ridiculous scenario in my head makes me realize how "dramatic" I'm being and allows me to laugh off these heavy thoughts that weigh me down. Link to comment
enzarto Posted May 20, 2009 Author Share Posted May 20, 2009 As long as it doesnt become an obsession, I think having "dark thoughts" is actually a healthy way to process volatile emotions like anger/frustration. And... definitely a good way to exercise your imagination! Sometimes making up some ridiculous scenario in my head makes me realize how "dramatic" I'm being and allows me to laugh off these heavy thoughts that weigh me down. True, I live on...you know, but I think these thoughts need to go, they happened so long ago. You can go crazy! some thoughts are like staples, but you're right, these grudges need to go. however i just consider them i never act upon them. Link to comment
sarey Posted May 20, 2009 Share Posted May 20, 2009 I suffer from multiple mental health illnesses therefore I have many dark thoughts. Many are out of my control. sucks. Link to comment
90_hour_sleep Posted May 20, 2009 Share Posted May 20, 2009 i think that most of these thoughts start out innocently enough...but over time we build resentment and anger...and fuel the initial thought until it's a fire raging out of control. my ex-girlfriends brother made some very disrespectful comments to me in the early stages of our relationship. over the course of six years...i continued to feed the anger that i had felt. i convinced myself that this one mistake on his behalf had completely removed any shred of worth that he might have had. i found ways to justify my feelings. i created a monster. i think it's best to stand back and ask yourself if this person's actions really make him/her worthless. i suppose some actions may be considered unforgivable...but in the end...this turns out badly for all parties involved. there's something to be said for the saying, ''forgive and forget''. Link to comment
enzarto Posted May 20, 2009 Author Share Posted May 20, 2009 Dark thoughts are as much of the human condition as "light" (or positive) thoughts. I don't want to even share my dark thoughts with anyone, even under the cover of anonymity. I just thought of a quote from that tv show "law and order" said by that one super smart detective (played by Vincent Defonio) "bad men do what only good men dream of" or something like that. We've all got our shadows. EXACTLY my point! Link to comment
iwishiknew Posted May 20, 2009 Share Posted May 20, 2009 My dark thought is that I might never have a gf and be single forever Link to comment
GoneCrazy Posted May 25, 2009 Share Posted May 25, 2009 I'm still thinking of a girl that i have a big emotional crush on and now that shes seeing a new guy deep down i want things NOT to work out between them So much for me beining a great friend. iwishiknew, I'm the same man thats always going through my head. Link to comment
summersweet Posted May 27, 2009 Share Posted May 27, 2009 I recently found out where my torch is working. He's married but I want to see him "by accident". Friggin facebook Link to comment
Khollest Posted May 28, 2009 Share Posted May 28, 2009 Unfortunately, I have many dark thoughts. Fortunately, none involve physically hurting another person other than myself. I would like to avoid hurting people in any way, including emotionally. I die regularly in my dreams and contemplate driving into a bridge embankment daily. Edited: Removed Selfish Rant Link to comment
coyote1980 Posted May 28, 2009 Share Posted May 28, 2009 I think about going back in time and strangle myself for not asking out my crush at least twice a day! I also beat up my bosses in my head over and over at work. Do I have a problem? Link to comment
greywolf Posted May 28, 2009 Share Posted May 28, 2009 Yeah, I vividly imagine killing or beating people up too. Link to comment
ConfusedKitty Posted May 28, 2009 Share Posted May 28, 2009 Yeah, I vividly imagine killing or beating people up too. So do I. I have a lot of jealousy and hate, but not for that many people. There is one particular actress that I can think of right now that I have those types of thoughts about, and it's strictly due to jealousy. Another dark thought: I do not enjoy my current relationship anymore. I really want to leave. Link to comment
Jake Posted May 28, 2009 Share Posted May 28, 2009 I've considered driving off a cliff with my car at 80mph...luckily I'm not that crazy yet. I burn with annoyance on the inside towards people I CAN'T STAND but never show it on the outside. I'm "nice" around these people if we run into each other (I honestly do my best to avoid them). If I spoke my mind their jaws would hit the floor. I think I'm stupid and don't deserve anyone or any happiness for that matter. I often won't ask a girl out because I think she's better off not knowing/meeting me. I prejudge people within the first 10 seconds of meeting them and quickly put a label on them. Link to comment
greywolf Posted May 28, 2009 Share Posted May 28, 2009 Sometimes I imagine crashing into the car in front of me when I drive. lol Link to comment
coyote1980 Posted May 28, 2009 Share Posted May 28, 2009 Sometimes I imagine crashing into the car in front of me when I drive. lol Road rage! I had that feeling this morning when someone cut me off. Link to comment
perplunk Posted May 28, 2009 Share Posted May 28, 2009 Road rage! I had that feeling this morning when someone cut me off. I've never wanted to crash into another car... But I've often thought about jerking the wheel into a ditch when on the interstate... I hope that I'll be hit by a truck when on my bike every day... Guess that power of thought stuff is all B.S. Link to comment
ConfusedKitty Posted May 29, 2009 Share Posted May 29, 2009 I've never wanted to crash into another car... But I've often thought about jerking the wheel into a ditch when on the interstate... I hope that I'll be hit by a truck when on my bike every day... Guess that power of thought stuff is all B.S. I think the same. I look in the rearview mirror and hope that the car behind me is going so fast it crashes into me and I get sandwiched between the car behind and the car in front. But also, one day I will take a trip to the Grand Canyon. That's gong to be the end of it. Link to comment
greywolf Posted May 29, 2009 Share Posted May 29, 2009 Sometimes I wish that my brakes would fail. lol My cousin and I were talking about this once. She said she won't hold knives near her body because she's afraid she'll stab herself on purpose. lol Link to comment
enzarto Posted May 30, 2009 Author Share Posted May 30, 2009 Unfortunately, I have many dark thoughts. Fortunately, none involve physically hurting another person other than myself. I would like to avoid hurting people in any way, including emotionally. I die regularly in my dreams and contemplate driving into a bridge embankment daily. Edited: Removed Selfish Rant selfish rants are okay. i think my dark thoughts are terrible. like killing my step dad. sometimes i think of how it would be to shred someone to pieces. sometimes i even want to ruin things that seem perfect.... Link to comment
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