g84 Posted June 30, 2009 Author Share Posted June 30, 2009 I woke up around 7 something this morning - close to 8. I felt very down, and i just wanted to go back to sleep. That's what i did. I didn't want to get out of bed; i feel so sick and tired..I'm probably not going to do very well ''next time''; a part of my mind is already turning against me. : ( Link to comment
g84 Posted July 1, 2009 Author Share Posted July 1, 2009 Here's what I can tell you..I haven't felt this disgusting in a long time. Che me ne frega. Link to comment
g84 Posted July 5, 2009 Author Share Posted July 5, 2009 Here we are again.. I'm really nervous Link to comment
g84 Posted July 7, 2009 Author Share Posted July 7, 2009 I wrote out an entry...and it somehow got lost/deleted.... Very condensed version: Something inside of me is wanting to get away from here. I don't want to be coming here a few years from now. Link to comment
g84 Posted July 16, 2009 Author Share Posted July 16, 2009 I'm very angry..I'm trying to do something that would be beneficial to me; it may help me to change environments for just two or three days. This would actually be the first time that i do something like this. Due to my anxiety, it is a bit more difficult than it should be, but i've been told that it's truly not as complicated as I think. I hate that I have to feel guilty for this. I am doing something completely normal. Apparently, I don't have anyone's support? I shouldn't be surprised. I hate how messed up everything has always been. This is not normal. Nothing has ever felt normal here. Link to comment
g84 Posted July 21, 2009 Author Share Posted July 21, 2009 One of the worst days i've had in a while. I don't have the energy to write about it, I don't see the point. There is too much.. :sad: Link to comment
g84 Posted July 22, 2009 Author Share Posted July 22, 2009 Do ppl ever think that this body part that they are picking apart, and laughing at hysterically..and making grimaces at - is similar to someone else's body part, on here? (and it's not the same thing as yesterday's) everyday..something new! This was really hurtful for me. I came here to get away from that sort of thing. Link to comment
g84 Posted July 22, 2009 Author Share Posted July 22, 2009 I wonder if it's time for me to leave now. I must have done something really wrong? I don't know.. I don't know what to do, someone please help me I feel like hurting myself. Link to comment
g84 Posted July 24, 2009 Author Share Posted July 24, 2009 i'm trying to be okay, but i'm not. I think i'll be deleting this journal and many other things pretty soon.. Link to comment
g84 Posted July 29, 2009 Author Share Posted July 29, 2009 I just checked my own profile to see how many threads I've replied to today. Why?: I wanted to make sure that I didn't make too many posts. This is not normal. I feel guilty for replying to too many threads; I feel as though I am not allowed to. My posts are not welcome- that seems to be my belief. I am somewhat relieved if I have only made 4-5 posts. It means i've tried my best to stay out of everyone's way. Wonderful. Something is not right. I am so tired of this feeling. psssst: who reads this? i have to wonder sometimes lol feel free to say helloo Link to comment
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