Over and Out.

[SuperSport]

All I do is give give give. Nobody gives back. Its been a while since anybody helped me. Nobody cares. My life sucks. America Sucks. GM is dead, thanks to politicians. I dont care about anything anymore.

 

I will find a gun and blow my head off.

 

Over and out.

[velvette]

if you blow your head off, that's your responsibility. nobody drove you to it. that kind of attitude sucks. give to yourself, before giving to others. put yourself first, don't rely on others for your own happiness. own up.

[Perfect Dark]

Don't do it. I am sure you have some people who care about you. You have the power to change the things in your life that you don't like. The world may not be so great right now but things have to get better.

[Perfect Dark]

Don't be a damn fool. You think your life sucks now? Guess how bad it will suck if you are dead and good things were just around the corner from here if you had only hung in there.

 

If you want revenge on America, GM and politicians or whatever, buckle down, man up and ride this storm through and come out the other end stronger and more successful.

 

Suicide is for cowards. I don't think you are one.

 

I don't agree with that.

 

But stay, you would be leaving people behind who love you.

[Ac143]

You're 20yrs old, why do you want to give up on life so easily? Do you know how many people fight for their lives each day?? If I gave up at 20, I would have missed out on soooo many things in these past 8yrs both good and bad. Dont do it, its the easy way out! More people will miss you then you realize.

 

And really, GM, politics & America are the reason you want to end your life?

[Perfect Dark]

Go and see a counselor, be pro active and get better.

[DropToZero]

Find a purpose in life... because it sure as hell isn't GM, or America, or money, or your own life itself... it's a lot bigger than that. All those things will fail at times, and you'll lose hope because you find purpose in them and others... which may or may not be why you are where you are now... explain further and maybe we'll find out why you think this is reasoning to die. Seeing the bigger picture is how you get out of these situations... knowing the bad will not last forever...

[sarey]

Don't waste such a young life over this. There are more things to life than this.

[SuperSport]

Its not all about GM. I just don't care about anything anymore. Even when good things happen to me, Im just not happy. Its not worth it. Im not worth it.

 

"What ever happened to the young mans heart? Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart."

[DropToZero]

Its not all about GM. I just don't care about anything anymore. Even when good things happen to me, Im just not happy. Its not worth it. Im not worth it.

 

"What ever happened to the young mans heart? Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart."

 

Nice shinedown quote...

 

You don't care about anything... anyone? Go on... when did this start? today? or has it been going on like this? I've felt like this in the past too... I fell into some sort of depression over the last year and part of '07, it lasted for quite some time before I saw any light out of the tunnel.

 

I can't tell what's made you feel this way though unless I have some more information... tell us more about it. Do you feel like you don't matter? and that no one else matters? or anything you do matters? Feel like you're missing the point of what you're doing or there is no point... life itself for that matter? When did you notice you weren't happy about good things happening to you? what specifically happened? Let us know man, I hope to hear back soon.

[sarey]

Go see your doctor. Sounds like you might be suffering from a chemical imbalance if this has been going on for a while.

[SuperSport]

Nice shinedown quote...

 

You don't care about anything... anyone? Go on... when did this start? today? or has it been going on like this? I've felt like this in the past too... I fell into some sort of depression over the last year and part of '07, it lasted for quite some time before I saw any light out of the tunnel.

 

I can't tell what's made you feel this way though unless I have some more information... tell us more about it. Do you feel like you don't matter? and that no one else matters? or anything you do matters? Feel like you're missing the point of what you're doing or there is no point... life itself for that matter? When did you notice you weren't happy about good things happening to you? what specifically happened? Let us know man, I hope to hear back soon.

 

Ive felt like this since summer of 08, so little less than a year. I dont feel like I matter. I dont feel like im worth anything to anybody. I dont enjoy or appreciate my life anymore. Good things have happened to me since then, but at the end of the day I just lay in bed and stare. I think of how Im going to die, and when would be a good time to do it. When I try to talk to people about it, they just say the usual "yeah Im here to listen", then they just go back to their routine. Doesnt seem like anyone cares enough. Therefore they would kinda shrug it off if I were not even here.

[DropToZero]

Ive felt like this since summer of 08, so little less than a year. I dont feel like I matter. I dont feel like im worth anything to anybody. I dont enjoy or appreciate my life anymore. Good things have happened to me since then, but at the end of the day I just lay in bed and stare. I think of how Im going to die, and when would be a good time to do it. When I try to talk to people about it, they just say the usual "yeah Im here to listen", then they just go back to their routine. Doesnt seem like anyone cares enough. Therefore they would kinda shrug it off if I were not even here.

 

Hmmm... well at least you try and tell others, I for the most part wouldn't tell anyone what was going on.

 

So I have a couple other questions... what do you believe in?...if not your own life? or what did you believe in prior to feeling this way? I know you may not feel it anymore, but I know you can remember what it was. See the only way you can slip into this unappreciation and uncaring mood, or that no one else cares mood is usually by a loss of something... even if you didn't even recognize it being lost. I won't lie to you though, most people don't care, most are too busy or too selfish to give anyone other than themselves or family even a second thought these days. Not everyone though... that can definitely make a difference based on who your friends are, or who you surround yourself with. Most of my friends, drank and partied, I lived on a college campus house when I started feeling like everything was pointless... I felt like getting wasted or drinking every other night was stupid, and then I felt like my friends were wasting their time and money on alcohol/weed and useless mindless talk/drama... but they were happy, or at least they seemed to be. I tried partying, but it never really seemed to be me... I couldn't get into the drinking scene fully and never felt like I had close friends, just well known aquaintances. A few of my roomates would listen to me from time to time, but they didn't understand it... They would rather be lost in bliss than awakened in their ignorance. I quit doing most things I used to do, playing guitar, dancing, overall dating(I just started hooking up) because I didn't care about anyone-anymore including myself...

 

I can go on more about how I became that way...but it's not going to help you...

 

So go on more, tell me more about what made you notice this... because it took me a while to notice these things too, what did you used to take purpose in? What used to make you get up each and every day? School? work? friends? relationships? Then what did you realize...

 

(and if I'm way off in all this... let me know)

[SuperSport]

I dont believe in anything. I too have more acquaintances than friends. All I do is go to school, work, and work on my car. Ive even lost interest in working on my car. I had plans to fix up my car this summer, but now I dont even care about that. And I loved cars. Nothing matters. I dont understand how people can be so happy, and how people less fortunate than me have more hope than me. I am gaining weight like crazy, Im up to 180.

 

I dont know what the drive was back then to do the things I liked. I was bullied a lot in junior and senior year. They treated me like crap then came to my house and vandalized my car. Twice. I guess its all just piling up. I dated this gorgeous girl last summer. Havent seen her since the night of the first date. Im too mentally unstable for her anyway. I dont want her to find out if I die, because she would think its her fault. When in reality its much deeper than that, for the reasons I already mentioned.

 

Like I said I dont want to do anything anymore. I have no hope for myself anymore. I want to do nothing and be nothing.

[DropToZero]

You don't believe in anything, you never did? Well that right there is already a place looking for something to go wrong.

 

Why did you love cars? Did it make you proud to fix them up on your own? Did you want to show off for others?... or just for yourself? ...and then one day you realized you had no reason behind it all?

 

Well... if you don't understand what makes others happy, then what is happiness to you? Having your own definition of happiness is one way to finding out what makes others happy... and yourself. If you don't have something to base it on, then your just kinda guessing and it won't be any easier. I believe these people you see that are so happy, are happy because they realize they are living, and living with a purpose. Happiness is in the moment to me, despite what's really going on around you, it is the moment you may sit back and realize what's good in your life, and not all that's bad.

 

Tell me some good things in your life... you do have a car, whether it's fixed up or not, not everyone has a car, and you do have a place to live, right? Do you have some money, even if not a lot? These may seem trivial, but they are reasons to be somewhat happy, but they are not reasons to base your happiness on. Some people don't have anything, so the best place to start is to realize what you do have and be grateful, and I know that won't be easy to see.

 

You want to do nothing, and be nothing. Why is that? What made you lose hope in what you are in the first place? You are who you are. Why do you think you need to be something/someone else? People are cruel sometimes, and more girls will come around(trust me, don't get hung up on one), but they don't dictate your life, they can only affect you if you let them. Be above them, forgive their actions and let it go, you should be out in the real world now, many are getting a kick in the butt realizing HS was all a joke and how no one cares what you/they did in HS. This is your life now, if you're not happy with it, then you change it, and you have got to get control of it.... no one else is going to do it for you...

[SuperSport]

I loved cars just for the freedom of driving. Opening the sunroof and cranking the tunes. I loved to show them off to people, and I loved how people would ask me about the cars I drove when I was stopped at the gas station, and people would stare at them in traffic. Now its like who cares. There are way too many people in this world for me to make a difference. I just dont care. I am not happy with life, so I am changing it. Im gonna die. I dont care. I just dont. Whatever anyone says, I dont care. And for the record, yes, the unions suck. They killed GM.

 

Good bye.

[xxNPxx]

I dont care. I just dont. Whatever anyone says, I dont care. And for the record, yes, the unions suck. They killed GM.

 

 

You do care otherwise you wouldn't be saying unions suck. Don't come here with that "I don't care" when your sad and depressed. You want to see something that doesn't care? Ask your computer. It doesn't care what you do, it has no feelings. Try asking it if it hates unions. Go ahead and try. No response? Because it doesn't care. Are you saying that if it did have emotions and realized it couldn't care then it would kill itself? I'm not following your logic here.

 

You realized that nobody gives a crap about how awesome your car is just like pro football player becomes depressed when he realized his status means nothing when it comes to outside the football field. You have no real power in things you don't spend time and effort towards. Honestly, I don't care if GM is killed. Down with GM I say. What does GM have to do with your car? Because modifying any other car wouldn't have the same feel as a GM right? Your favorite CEO isn't producing the model you like so your going to kill yourself over it? Where's the love of modding just for the sake of modding?

 

You want to see some people who don't care, look at all the suicides and see if the rest of the world lives their lives. You committing suicide makes you nothing more then a forgotten number, less then nothing because people won't even remember you existed.

 

What you have to do is find something to live for. You say you like feeling the wind and good tunes when you roll down the street in your car. Have you tried riding a bike with an iPod? It's a great rush of wind with some of the best music in the world. Nothing can compare to the feeling, it's so beautiful. Live with the wind and become it's child. Use your own strength to bring yourself to new places, even if it's just around the corner. Just remember to look up into the sky and embrace the wind. If you like riding around in cars, imagine what it would feel like to get to the same destination with your own willpower. It's amazing!

 

There's nothing wrong with saying that the only reason you live is to experience.

[murman2]

Hey man, I feel your pain.. I'm having to deal with a lot of bull * * * * in my life too and feeling suicidal... I'm just afraid to do it because I was raised catholic and killing yourself is considered the ultimate sin, so I fear if I do, god will send me to hell for eternity... I also don't do it because my friend said her uncle killed himself and his mother is so upset and disturbed that she talks about him all the time still and its just sad and creepy. I dont want my mom to end up like that even though i'm really angry at her, and she probably deserves it, I could never do that to her.

[waveseer]

You are worth it, what makes you think you aren't?

[SuperSport]

To put the whole GM thing to rest...My parents work for GM. They have for 15 years. White collar designers, with no college education. I consider them to be extremely lucky for the job they have. If they lose it, there will be zero income in my house, and then I dont know WHAT i will do. I also love GM. The Monte Carlo and Camaro are my favorite cars and always have been. If GM dies, then all the suppliers that supply all the auto companies (including every ones beloved Toyota) will fail. Its not just GM that will "disappear". It will be a domino effect. End of that story.

 

I still feel hopeless. I just feel like a burden on every body. My family is always stressing on saving money, and how the grocery bill is in the triple digits a week. I try to eat out as much as I can to lighten the load, but it doesn't seem to be working. The so called friends I thought I had are just mere acquaintances. I was invited to a birthday party and want even offered cake. And these are people Ive known and seen since HS.

 

I would rather have people feel bad and sorry for me if I offed myself than suffer in my own darkness. I lay in my room every night and break down. Nobody knows the pain I feel every day. I give and give for people, fixing peoples cars for free, just because im nice, work peoples shifts at work, and I get nothing in return. Nobody pays me back, offers me lunch, offers to pick up a shift when I have tickets to an event. They have to "think" about it. All last autumn and winter I blamed the weather, but the sun is now shining, the buds are on the trees, and I dont feel any different. Im at rock bottom. I think tomorrow Im going to go to the local shooting range and have an accident.

[waveseer]

Start fixing cars for $$ and you will be able to afford to help out more at home. You will feel more useful and there is nothing wrong with being paid for your labor.

[murman2]

don't do it!! By killing yourself you will emotionally-murder your mom and dad.. Think about them! they love you..