tina-rocks Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 I had a home once.. a house I shared with those I cherished and loved the most in life. Dana and Cookie my so... loved cats and the man I vowed to spend the rest of my days with. It's gone....... I'm in a daze since leaving on the 24th. Seems like an age already and I am in so much pain I can't breathe today as it hurts. Went out in an attempt to block it out but found myself during my return journey heading toward my home. It hit me again.. It's all gone and I just started sobbing. Found myself in a car park just sitting staring at I know not what. Sighing I can hear Dana and Cookies meows calling to me. Do they know I left them for their sakes. Do they know I love them and always will. Knowing the day I left Karl would be moving the women in he left me for that very night and that she would take my place. He showed no emotions at all but held out hand to take my keys to the house and as coldly as he committed adultery he shut the door on me. I cried all the way to the lock up and long after. I am unable to speak this moment and could only type although not entirely sure even if I make sense at this point. But, here I am. Guys could do with some support right now as today is unbearable. Tina Link to comment
supp11 Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 Im so sorry! I cant imagine what you are going through since I have never been married. All I can really say is hang in there! Think about the alternative...being with the man that doesnt want you - of course you wouldnt want that, so this is for the better! Link to comment
Ac143 Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 OMG my heart goes out to you, I can only imagine how painful this is. Im soo sorry you are going thru this All I can say is, he is a-hole for what he did. Again Im sorry & I hope things start to look up..soon! Link to comment
avman Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 I'm very sorry Tina. Please hang in there. This is the roughest time for you but it WILL get better. Hold your head high in that you are the better person here. Your ex will get his karma in the end. Link to comment
renaissancewoman101 Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 Tina-rocks, why can't you keep the cats? It's obvious that you love them very much. Link to comment
CallingAllAngels Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 Tina... I am so sorry hon. My exhusband committed adultry too. I had to leave my 2 dogs behind and I know the pain of missing them. Words don't help, I know. BIG HUGS to you... ~Allie Link to comment
Ac143 Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 Tina-rocks, why can't you keep the cats? It's obvious that you love them very much. Yes, I was thinking this too. I would be devasated if I couldn't keep my dogs if we broke it off. I think that would be the most painful part. Link to comment
tina-rocks Posted March 26, 2009 Author Share Posted March 26, 2009 Allie, I did not know you had to leave your dogs as well. Oh god it hurts so much I can't even imagine how you still feel. Your support through your own pain shows what a beautiful soul you have. Thank you so much Tina x Tina... I am so sorry hon. My exhusband committed adultry too. I had to leave my 2 dogs behind and I know the pain of missing them. Words don't help, I know. BIG HUGS to you... ~Allie Link to comment
tina-rocks Posted March 26, 2009 Author Share Posted March 26, 2009 Yes, I was thinking this too. I would be devasated if I couldn't keep my dogs if we broke it off. I think that would be the most painful part. Dana is quite sick as chronic leg issues from being run down when younger and the vets advised they would be better staying in their home they have always known if possible and I could not afford to buy Karl out. I wanted them to be happy... Link to comment
lostandhurt Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 Tina, You need to allow yourself to let this pain out. I know you have been holding in so much and it is time to just open the gates and let it flow. Living with him these last months you have been trying to be so strong and show him what you are made of. He is not a man, just a coward. Leave him to his little world and before long it will fall in on him. I hope you taught those cats to pee on his pillow like I told you to. lost Link to comment
Tired Tiger Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 I can't offer advice, only empathy. In less that 24 hours I will be driving away (far away) from the home I've known for several years, my love, my home, stepsons, two goofy dogs... basically everything. As the site's name says... you're not alone. Link to comment
Ac143 Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 Dana is quite sick as chronic leg issues from being run down when younger and the vets advised they would be better staying in their home they have always known if possible and I could not afford to buy Karl out. I wanted them to be happy... Aww poor babies.. You are a strong person for doing what is right for them! **HUGS** to you, you are in the worse place right now so believe things could only start looking up. If you ever need anyone to talk to, please PM me. Link to comment
tina-rocks Posted March 26, 2009 Author Share Posted March 26, 2009 Tina, You need to allow yourself to let this pain out. I know you have been holding in so much and it is time to just open the gates and let it flow. Living with him these last months you have been trying to be so strong and show him what you are made of. He is not a man, just a coward. Leave him to his little world and before long it will fall in on him. I hope you taught those cats to pee on his pillow like I told you to. lost As usual despite my pain you manage to make me smile. I Tried but the best I could do was get them using the litter tray more. That's only because they were to lazy to go out. God it hurts today so badly I can't find words to express it. I can't bear not being there for them. Running out of charge on my laptop to boot so have to find somewhere to charge it as less than 10% left but will get back on here as soon as I can. x x Link to comment
tina-rocks Posted March 26, 2009 Author Share Posted March 26, 2009 Aww poor babies.. You are a strong person for doing what is right for them! **HUGS** to you, you are in the worse place right now so believe things could only start looking up. If you ever need anyone to talk to, please PM me. Thanks so my Ac143 the support is giving me a lifeline as today I really can't cope. x Link to comment
tina-rocks Posted March 26, 2009 Author Share Posted March 26, 2009 I can't offer advice, only empathy. In less that 24 hours I will be driving away (far away) from the home I've known for several years, my love, my home, stepsons, two goofy dogs... basically everything. As the site's name says... you're not alone. I am so sorry I know how you feel and wish I could take it away. Don't know what else to say but hugs sent your way.... x Link to comment
Crazyaboutdogs Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 It is a dark time now but it will get better over time. I agree that karma will come back and bite him on the butt sooner or later and by that time you will be happy in your new life. Link to comment
41_and_done Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 Tina, I read your post and felt myself tear up. Wish I could give you a big hug. know this... you are wonderful in every way. Eric Link to comment
Laura11111 Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 I'm so sorry. Just know that things can only get better from here. It just takes time. I promise you that you'll move on and be happy again. Everyone does. Link to comment
tina-rocks Posted March 27, 2009 Author Share Posted March 27, 2009 Tina, I read your post and felt myself tear up. Wish I could give you a big hug. know this... you are wonderful in every way. Eric Thank you so much Eric for your kind words. x Link to comment
CallingAllAngels Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Are you doing any better today Tina? My thoughts are with you. ~Allie Link to comment
kate2660 Posted March 29, 2009 Share Posted March 29, 2009 Tina- I feel your pain. I am going through a similar situation. I miss my husband. I miss my cat as well. I can't believe someone else has my place....has my kitty. My little Lucy that I found and gave to my husband as a gift. I can't believe she is standing where I stood. It infuriates me. It saddens me. It makes me feel so helpless. Yet, I grow stronger each day. There will be days when I take one step forward, then the next I take three steps back. Please keep going. Empower yourself. Allow yourself to cry. You are handling this the healthy way. He will one day realize what he has lost. Perhaps not today and perhaps not tomorrow, but one day. And you will have moved on. I know you are hurting and it is unbearable. Come here and post often....it will help you heal....and then one day you won't need to come here at all. We are all here for you.....I feel the same way right now. I miss my husband, and my Lucy. Link to comment
CallingAllAngels Posted March 29, 2009 Share Posted March 29, 2009 Tina...are you feeling any better hon? Link to comment
butternut Posted March 30, 2009 Share Posted March 30, 2009 I agree with lostandhurt. Tina, let the tears flow. I have been in your shoes, and I know how it feels. It is so wrong. You need to grieve; it is a loss. A good counselor can help. Cry out the tears. Then fall asleep. Note : you will repeat this again and again. One day, you will notice it happens less frequently, and you will notice that your emotions change, much like the clouds. Some things you can't change, can't fix. Move on, and do so in babysteps. Surround yourself with good people. It will get better, I promise. Link to comment
tina-rocks Posted March 30, 2009 Author Share Posted March 30, 2009 I'm so sorry you are suffering too this way. I know the pain can be unbearable. Thank you so much for your support it means so much. Tina x Link to comment
tina-rocks Posted March 30, 2009 Author Share Posted March 30, 2009 I agree with lostandhurt. Tina, let the tears flow. I have been in your shoes, and I know how it feels. It is so wrong. You need to grieve; it is a loss. A good counselor can help. Cry out the tears. Then fall asleep. Note : you will repeat this again and again. One day, you will notice it happens less frequently, and you will notice that your emotions change, much like the clouds. Some things you can't change, can't fix. Move on, and do so in babysteps. Surround yourself with good people. It will get better, I promise. Thank you butternut for your kind words and for your support. It helps so much Tina x Link to comment
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