Hit the brick wall

[Singlestill]

I had been doing quite well in my recovery the past few weeks, doing well in school, hanging out with new friends, writing a bunch. Then last night it hit me like a ton of bricks that she was gone. Today has been even worse. It seems like I am back at the beginning again. I know that I can feel better, know that I WILL feel better, but tonight it seems like I never will again.

 

Just putting this down helped. Seeing that a part of me can write that I was and will be better.

 

Thanks guys and godspeed to all you who are recovering too.

[metrogirl]

I had been doing quite well in my recovery the past few weeks, doing well in school, hanging out with new friends, writing a bunch. Then last night it hit me like a ton of bricks that she was gone. Today has been even worse. It seems like I am back at the beginning again. I know that I can feel better, know that I WILL feel better, but tonight it seems like I never will again.

 

Just putting this down helped. Seeing that a part of me can write that I was and will be better.

 

Thanks guys and godspeed to all you who are recovering too.

 

Hang in there.....You will have good days and bad.

 

This is a great place to vent and or cry.....

[browneyedgirl36]

I'm going through the same thing. I was doing really, really well for awhile, getting into all sorts of activities, working out hanging around with friends, etc., and I just recently slipped back -- not to "square one" maybe, but back, for sure -- and I feel myself losing interest in things, not really caring very much, not having hopes for the future. I know it's temporary, though. I've been through this before.

 

I hope you feel better soon. You'll have times like this, from time to time. You just have to keep plugging along, keeping as busy as possible, doing things you love, hanging around with positive people, taking good care of yourself, etc.

 

Hang in there!

[elizmdavis]

I had been doing quite well in my recovery the past few weeks, doing well in school, hanging out with new friends, writing a bunch. Then last night it hit me like a ton of bricks that she was gone. Today has been even worse. It seems like I am back at the beginning again. I know that I can feel better, know that I WILL feel better, but tonight it seems like I never will again.

 

Just putting this down helped. Seeing that a part of me can write that I was and will be better.

 

Thanks guys and godspeed to all you who are recovering too.

 

I hear ya on having good and bad days. There is so much healing to do, it takes a lot of time. I am not quite where you are yet, but I can only imagine how confusing it must feel to be doing really good for so long and then all of a sudden you go back.

 

You are strong though...look how far you've come since ending things! You can only get further

[Seymore]

I have my days too. I don't feel like calling her or anything (Over 40 days now NC), but I just feel...blah. I still fear bumping into her or seeing her pass by in the morning on the way to work (our paths to work cross), because it hurts.

 

My aunt has a masters in Psych (although she works with suicidal teenagers), and I almost feel like calling her up. I remember she was there the last night my ex and I were together, and I told my aunt after my ex threw a fit and ran off "I'm getting fed up with this". She said "You are such a good guy, but you can only do so much for someone like her".

[parlae]

just look at how far you've come.

(alot further than i can say about myself! lol)

there will always be better days, and some will also be worse.

but it's part of the healing process.

 

i think you're doing good by writing.

you may also benefit from buying a good back.

 

i bought one a few days ago, called "getting back together"..

some people have said it's only helping me hang onto false hope

but the book has really helped me see everything in a different perspective

and it's made alot of things (about my ex/the relationship) much more clear to me

 

so maybe that's something that could help you as well??

 

i wish you the best of luck with everything!