gee Posted February 7, 2009 Posted February 7, 2009 Hello everyone! I wanted to seriosuly make this official...Thank you God I am healed!!! A bit over a year broken up, and 7months NC. 4yr relationship. Some know my story, but I'm not sure if my ex left me for someone, or had GIGS. I'm not really sure. She said, she wasn't ready to get serious and needed to think about herself..then she tells me she couldn't trust me! Go figure! It doesn't matter to me anymore why she REALLY left me. She's the only one with real answers. I'm not going to force it out of her. She made her decision and that's that. I'm not playing victim for the break up. I had my share too. I guess it wasn't meant to be. I loved this woman with all of my heart, though. I'd dive in front of a bullet for her! I have made countless prayers to God since our break up...To bring her back!!! I saw that wasn't working. I realized I was praying for the wrong things. I let myself go completely and wasn't thinking about myself anymore!! I then started praying for my healing and 7 months after NC I have made it. I can't believe how low I was a year ago and to see me now I'm a totally changed man inside and out! I love the new me, and family and friends do too! I have regained my confidence again! I have started to approach women without having my ex in my thoughts at the same time (it made me feel like I was cheating before, ugh). That for me is a sign that I am on the right path. It took almost a year to get out there but for me it was worth it! I have an interest in a young lady at work (an angel). I'm not sure how that is going to end, but I'm def going to give it a shot. Regardless if it doesn't work for me it was a HUGE step towards starting a new chapter. I would seriously give anything for a chance with this young woman. There are butterfiles in my stomach and a bit of a feeling in my heart (poor heart of mine it took a severe beating before) about her. The important thing here is that I'm living my life the way it was intended to be. I am making myself happy and taking care of myself again. I will never neglect myself again! ENA has made a immense influence in my life! Without the wonderful people here I don't know what I would've done. I have learned so much during my break up in here. I am smarter and wiser due to ENA. Everything here makes sense to me now. To all the heartbroken..it's only a matter of time before you say, forget him/her. Let the person that broke your heart go because how can you love someone that has treated you with disrespect and has no love for you anymore? You have to be strong and immediately stay away from them. Staying in the mix will make the pain a lot worse! You will get better believe me you will. Your first and only step should be NC. This saved me! Listen to what everyone here says they know what they are talking about. Exactly one year ago I was stuck in my room. I didn't acknowledge my birthday. I stayed home crying and felt like crapp! I had like a million missed calls from friends. They wanted to take me out and celebrate that night. I ignored them. Today, was different I didn't think about her and not expecting a call, NOTHING. I'm going to have a bash tonight. Hosted by my friends. I am going to enjoy myself in abundance. I'm so excited!!!! Thank you everyone! I am blessed..I truly am! I love you all from the bottom of my heart! I'm going to go party, and find the woman of my dreams now! Later. Cheers to all! gee
FreedomRing Posted February 7, 2009 Posted February 7, 2009 Awww Gee, isn't the greatest feeling, once you've come out of that black hole, and realize that the sun doesn't rise and set on your ex!!! Forgeddaboutem!! Enjoy yourself and good luck with the new girl...HAVE FUN!!!! Happy birthday!!!!
Clabs Posted February 7, 2009 Posted February 7, 2009 Gee! Nice one fella - nice one. You just have to start supporting a decent team and you will be properly sorted! Carry on looking after yourself mate. Mark
Crazyaboutdogs Posted February 7, 2009 Posted February 7, 2009 Have a great outing tonight and enjoy your Bday.
lostandhurt Posted February 7, 2009 Posted February 7, 2009 You sound like you are truly in a better place than even before the breakup. Today is my B-day and I will have one in your honor. lost
gee Posted February 7, 2009 Author Posted February 7, 2009 Thank you all! I appreciate it..sincerely! I just deleted most of the threads about my ex when I was a wreck. It felt great! Goodbye past! gee
gee Posted February 7, 2009 Author Posted February 7, 2009 You sound like you are truly in a better place than even before the breakup. Today is my B-day and I will have one in your honor. lost Hi lost, I'm glad you said that because I am better even before the break up! I'm glad you said that because that is a good point! Happy Bday to you! I will have a jager in your honor! gee
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