Does feeling numb mean I am almost done?

[kitchty]

Excruciating pain is becoming a dull sort of pain.

Sometimes I just feel apathetic about it all.

 

 

Do you think I am getting closer to the point where I really move on?

[HereAndNow]

Without knowing your circumstances it's hard to tell where you are in your recovery process, but any lessening of pain probably signals that healing has begun, especially if you have instituted NC. There will likely to be setbacks because recovery is not a linear process, but with time you'll be getting closer and closer to the light at the end of the tunnel. Be extra nice to yourself in the meantime, heck, be selfish if you have to, and good luck...

[elizmdavis]

When did your relationship end?

[Up and Down]

It depends, I think during emotional crises, sometimes people just become numb to everything. I am not sure if this is a self preservation method or not. I however believe you are completely done when you are apathetic to the situation. Either way it does sound like you are on the path to healing.

[kitchty]

Well

 

Relationship was three years long. It's been three months since the break-up.

I went through the very painful part when I cried all day, had to be on the phone with a friend all night and stuff.

 

NC was not possible since ex and I are still sharing an apartment.

 

I won't say it is that awesome to be around him, but it does help me towards healing somewhat.

 

First of all I realize that maybe we have irreconcilable differences. Our definition of cheating is already different and I am really disappointed by the way he justified his action and felt no guilt/regret. He cheats on me emotionally, but to him he does nothing wrong and does not regret it. According to him he felt so unhappy in the relationship and going "there" is his only respite. He just justified what he did.

 

Then I also realize how little he cares about me these days and how unhappy I am with him and the idea of who he is now. It dawns on me when I was writing my journal and realized that instead of being a person who puts a smile on my face everyday, he is the person who only gives me pain.

 

I am starting to realize there may be so many key things about him that I missed. I love what he appears to be...but turns out he is not what he appears to be in many ways.

 

I wish he was that person I had in my mind. I am still sad he is not. But I am starting to see he isn't. At first the pain is unbearable...now it is becoming dull. I am starting to feel apathetic because I know he is not going to change...and will keep on being this disappointing person who just looks like the person I used to love. I guess in a way I am getting used to the pain so I start to feel apathetic. why struggle?