self esteem

[chocolates]

I woke up this morning with a sense of clarity.. (but then i went back to sleep and now im more tired lol). I was just tired from the trip still.

 

and i realised that my self esteem is at an all time low.

 

What with losing those friends when i was grieving when dad died and clung on to people..

 

and then meeting that guy, and having him as a f buddy. It wasnt what i needed at all. But i guess losing the friends really hit me hard, and my self worth and confidence were already low, and my parents died before that as well. Felt like i had no one.

 

And so meeting him, the fact that he didnt want anymore than sex made me feel worse.

 

How to i fix my self esteem