Addiction, followed by isolation

[cryingout]

Anyone who has ever struggled with an addiction, knows how hard it is to cope with everyday life. Recovery isn't even considered "sobriety". You can quit whatever it is that you are doing, but you will probably suffer from the thought of your addiction. It scars you for life. It is written all over you. I, myself, am struggling with an addiction. It has gotten to the point where I don't want to be around people anymore. I've quit my addiction in the past, but relapsed. When I quit in the past, I STILL thought about it...It's a constant battle within...I have so many feelings of guilt and disgust.

 

I guess I am writing this to find out if it gets better in time?

[staircase]

Sounds like you have the world on your shoulders. I've only ever been addicted to a person, in the sense that I can relate to what you describe. Can't imagine what it must feel like. I've always heard though that it's all about how you interpret a relapse. If you think of it as part of recovery, and one step forward two steps back, one step forward again, you're less likely to get back into the addiction.

[greensleeves]

Have you sought any professional help for your addiction?