26 Days of NC...starting to crumble

[lauramed]

Well I haven't tried to contact him for 26 days. I have to keep fighting the urge because I want to talk to him so bad. Of course after calling him 3 weeks ago with no response, I get the message from him loud and clear. I just don't understand how someone can go from caring about you so much to dismissing you as though you were never anything in their lives. I guess I just need a few of you to kick me in the butt so that I don't give into this temptation to try one more time. I know what the end result will probably be and I'll just be in more pain than I am right now. The last few days have been rough days....harder than when the break up first happened. At least then I still had some hope that we could work things out. Maybe the reality of it is finally setting in because I really believed in my heart that he would eventually call me. I just don't understand how people can be so selfish and cruel especially with someone they know loves them.

[thejigsup]

Look at it from his point-of-view: he knows you still love him, but he has lost that feeling for you. He doesn't want to give you false hope or hurt you.THAT is why he isn't calling you. You will stop hurting after awhile and find someone who couldn't DREAM of going a day without calling you. This is what he is giving you the opportunity to do. It IS a form of caring.

[justletgo07]

Try you hardest to resist breaking NC. You're exactly right...you will feel worse after you do. I broke NC at almost the same point you're at now, and I really wish I hadn't. Just try to keep yourself busy and ride out this rough time. It will get easier, I promise.

[lauramed]

I am keeping myself busy, it's just that this past week has been worse than it was at the beginning. I know at some point it will be easier, will hurt much less than it does right now. However, the hurt and the thoughts of him just consume my every waking moment. It's an awful thing to love somebody who doesn't love you back.