Just needed to vent.

[Abbygail]

I haven't been able to get in touch with my Dad for months. I saw him at work, and that's it. I don't have a close relationship with anyone in my family because I never really saw them. And I had something happen with my Mom this morning that made me feel so unloved. She picked me up from my New Years Eve vacation early in the morning, dropped me off in the middle of nowhere and let me walk around for a few hours before she came and picked me up.

 

The backstory is she sent me a text message while I was there telling me that she was going to kick me out because I didn't talk much to her and her boyfriend. I told her it was because of the things she said/did to me as a child, which made her very angry and resulted in her kicking me out of the van. She said I was trying to make her out to be a monster.

 

I just really shaken up and very lonely. I called my Dad who has yet to call me back, not even to make sure that I'm okay. I also tried contacting my Dad a month ago, telling him I could not get into college because he didn't pay my high school tuition fee. No call back.

 

I feel like the only person who cares about me is my Grandmother. I want to change my last name to reflect hers because I feel so unloved by my Mother and Father. The things with my Mother are ongoing; I've posted about her a few times before, even talked to a couple of school counselors about her years back. But everyone just says that she must have my best interest at heart. I feel as if no one understands what she can be like, or they just don't believe me.

 

I don't really have any close friends other than my boyfriend, because I have SA and I don't get out any. I know a few people who have poor relationships with their parents, but who have friends who substitute as their family. But I don't have that either. I just feel so very alone from everything that happened today.

 

I just needed to vent. Things were going okay between my Mom and I; the last major incident that made me feel this way has been over a year ago. But I should have moved out awhile ago. I don't want anything else like this to happen because I know each time it does it scars me and it's one more thing I have to work to get over before I can live a normal life. I'm trying to pretend like everything is okay to my boyfriend but I feel so sad. I just keep crying.

 

Well anyway, I don't know if anyone read all this, but if you did, thanks.

[KG]

I feel sad for you...that's a terrible thing to have happen.

I don't have any advice other than try to keep your chin up!

[Cloudyday]

I've posted about her a few times before, even talked to a couple of school counselors about her years back. But everyone just says that she must have my best interest at heart. I feel as if no one understands what she can be like, or they just don't believe me.

 

Sounds like they aren't really listening to you at all. Have you ever thought of going to a professional for therapy? They might be more helpful than your school counselor. There are also support groups that deal with family issues with people that may be able to understand your situation and give you support instead of telling you generic statements. Sorry to hear about your situation. It's always tough dealing with family issues but hang tough. I hope you eventually get this problem resolved.

[mca1975]

Please tell your boyfriend about this and let him comfort you. How long have you and your b/f been together. How come you do not have any close friends, are you shy? Its not fair that your mother and father treat you like this and are not there for you. It's just the way it is though, which doesnt make it any easier, but you have to rise above it and see yourself as your own best friend. How old are you?

 

Its not fair the way families hurt each other at times. I don't think its that your parents do not love you, of course they do and if anything ever happened to you I'm sure they would feel devastated, but they are lacking in SHOWING that love to you and they are guilty of just being very selfish. Hopefully that can make you feel a little better. Other than that all you can do, is talk to them and tell them how they are making you feel. If that does not work, then just work on yourself and building your own life, make more friends and talk with your boyfriend. Much love to you xxx