lauramed Posted January 6, 2009 Author Share Posted January 6, 2009 I don't take it as you coming down hard on me. I need a good swift kick once and a while so I don't fall back into the same trap as before. I know how you feel...I have to stop myself everyday from calling him. If he was thinking about me, he'd pick up the phone to see how I was doing. He hasn't and that lets me know all that I need to know, though it doesn't make it any easier. It's just those tricks that your mind plays on you...right now I'm tired of trying to figure out what happened between the last time I saw him and when I called him 3 weeks ago. So I'm going to try to let go of that thought and figure out what to do with me and how to let him go. Link to comment
mcchops380 Posted January 6, 2009 Share Posted January 6, 2009 Yeah, don't do that to yourself and try and figure out what happened because he is the only one that knows truly why he hasn't called or anything. I myself struggle everyday not to call her but I just remember my past relationships when I broke NC and called and remembered how that felt to get rejected yet again. I just get worried about being almost and not having a steady g/f and if and when I will get married. My mom wants her and I to try out for that "Mommas Boy" show for next season. That would be hillarious although there are some smoking hot chicks on there. But we will both be fine one day and that day will be here quicker than we expect. Link to comment
Swany89 Posted January 6, 2009 Share Posted January 6, 2009 Letting go of someone is really hard...I am currently trying to do that myself. Nobody can tell you how to let go, or when it will eventually happen. It just does. After my ex broke up with me I constantly felt like it wasn't the end of him and I...and sometimes I still feel that, but I think that part of me is now pushing that feeling away because I feel like I am just giving myself false hope when I feel that way, and I don't need false hope. So now I am working really hard to just let it all go. Letting him go and not caring what he is up to or who he is with. All of that is starting to not bother me which is amazing because the tightening of my chest that I used to get when I over analyzed those things really hurt. So, all I can say is that it will eventually get better...possibly not completely, I still feel a burning in my chest everyday but I am becoming immune to it. And when you are able to let him go, it feels great because you then begin to focus more on yourself and becoming a better person because of it all. Link to comment
lauramed Posted January 6, 2009 Author Share Posted January 6, 2009 It is hard to let go. Today for some reason has just been really hard. I'm close to tears at any given moment of the day...and that's just when I thought that I had no more tears to cry over him. I haven't quite gotten to the point where I'm immune over the feelings....like waking up and him being the first thing that I think about and barely being able to breathe with the hurt. I wish I was over this, but it helps to come on here and get support from people who are going through the same thing. I appreciate all the advice and support you all have given me. It does help more than you can imagine. Link to comment
mcchops380 Posted January 7, 2009 Share Posted January 7, 2009 You doing any better today Laura(med)? Link to comment
lauramed Posted January 7, 2009 Author Share Posted January 7, 2009 The last few days have been hard. I went out last night with a friend and had a good time. Then I get home and cry buckets. Wouldn't take too much today either...good thing I'm at work. I have stayed strong though, and haven't tried to contact him....as much as I want to. If he wanted to talk or was thinking about me he would have called me. So part of me is angry right now and hurt. I just can't believe how he has treated me. I'm also a bit angry at myself, because I still love this guy and I know that he doesn't deserve it. Link to comment
mcchops380 Posted January 7, 2009 Share Posted January 7, 2009 Yeah I am glad to hear that you are sticking to your guns. This breakup for me has been rough because I used to rely on alcohol and sometimes drugs to get me through the rough times but I quit drinking about 2.5 months ago so I don't have any way to self medicate myself. All I know is that alcohol and partying has ruined a couple of my relationships and this one is somewhat included but it will no longer ruin anything of mine. Plus when your wasted and alone, it just makes you miss the person that much more. Link to comment
lauramed Posted January 7, 2009 Author Share Posted January 7, 2009 I understand what you're saying because I've done the alcohol thing more times that I can count and the bottom line...it doesn't help and as you said it just makes you miss them more. The one thing that is helping though is everyone here giving advice and support. I know how much my family and friends care about me, but this isn't something that I can talk to them about. They give well intended advice but unless your in this situation, as we all seem to be on here, they just don't understand. So having all of you to talk to is the biggest help of all. Link to comment
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