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I spent New Year's Eve in the ER... the ex couldn't even bother to call to see if I was okay, that hurt. Instead, he proceeded to get plastered with his friends, as usual.

 

So, after a very long winded fight today, I decided to cut him off completely. I deleted him from my phone book, from my myspace, from my buddy lists. I'm done.

 

I feel like absolute garbage, but it's bound to get easier. I know it's for the best.

 

I don't think I'll ever find anyone who I connect with on such a deep level as him (which is why I haven't been able to let go), but at least I'll be able to find someone who can give me the love, time, respect that I need.

 

Sigh.

 

He always went on about how his ex was the crazy one but honestly, I think it was him.

 

That's all...

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Yeah he did. He gave up his NYE plans of going out of town to be with his friends for a boys'-night-out to be there for me.

 

I guess that just sort of tipped it off. Someone out there is willing to make sacrifices for me.

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Thank you everyone... I feel so lost... I can't stop crying. This is the hardest thing (relationship-wise) that I've ever had to do... When we were physically together, the relationship was perfect, we never fought (little bantering bicker at most).... sigh.

 

 

I just don't know...

 

I damn well plan on moving out to Berkeley or Hayward for grad school (depending on my grades)... and I told him by then it will be too late but I'll be out there and he'll have missed his chance.

 

 

Victoria, I do believe there's more than one person for everyone too, thank you.

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Thank you everyone... I feel so lost... I can't stop crying. This is the hardest thing (relationship-wise) that I've ever had to do... When we were physically together, the relationship was perfect, we never fought (little bantering bicker at most).... sigh.

 

 

I just don't know...

 

I damn well plan on moving out to Berkeley or Hayward for grad school (depending on my grades)... and I told him by then it will be too late but I'll be out there and he'll have missed his chance.

 

 

Victoria, I do believe there's more than one person for everyone too, thank you.

 

 

You are a beautiful girl with a big heart, you will find someone else who deserves you. Keep your head up sweetheart.

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You are a beautiful girl with a big heart, you will find someone else who deserves you. Keep your head up sweetheart.

 

Thank you =) That's really sweet.

 

I KNOW I'm a good person, I do the right thing ALWAYS. And I know he doesn't deserve me.

 

 

 

I'm sooo sick and soooo crabby and this was just the push I needed to tell him off.

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Thank you everyone... I feel so lost... I can't stop crying. This is the hardest thing (relationship-wise) that I've ever had to do... When we were physically together, the relationship was perfect, we never fought (little bantering bicker at most).... sigh.

 

 

I just don't know...

 

I damn well plan on moving out to Berkeley or Hayward for grad school (depending on my grades)... and I told him by then it will be too late but I'll be out there and he'll have missed his chance.

 

 

Victoria, I do believe there's more than one person for everyone too, thank you.

 

No matter how much fun two people have talking, going to dinner, doing fun outings etc.

the true test of a relationship is when life is not so fun. There is nothing fun about sitting and waiting in the ER...but when you really care about someone that is what you do when they are in the ER or in the hospital. Better you found out about that side of him now. I have known married couples who don't bother spending much time with their partner when the partner is in the hospital about to go in for surgery and post surgery. That's when it really counts...to have a reliable partner who will be there for you to provide moral support during the scary times.

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No matter how much fun two people have talking, going to dinner, doing fun outings etc.

the true test of a relationship is when life is not so fun. There is nothing fun about sitting and waiting in the ER...but when you really care about someone that is what you do when they are in the ER or in the hospital. Better you found out about that side of him now. I have known married couples who don't bother spending much time with their partner when the partner is in the hospital about to go in for surgery and post surgery. That's when it really counts...to have a reliable partner who will be there for you to provide moral support during the scary times.

 

I agree completely... A 2 minute phone call asking, "are you okay?" would have even been sufficient. But, alas, partying and drinking was more important than finding a quiet spot to give me a quick call.

 

He's 30, by the way... I'm 22 in a week... I feel like I'm the mature one. It's sad.

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I agree completely... A 2 minute phone call asking, "are you okay?" would have even been sufficient. But, alas, partying and drinking was more important than finding a quiet spot to give me a quick call.

 

He's 30, by the way... I'm 22 in a week... I feel like I'm the mature one. It's sad.

 

 

I feel ya on that one. My ex was 7 1/2 years old than me but was the "child" in the relationship and preferred to party, get drunk and all that than taking a few minutes out of his night to even as much as call to check on me or his son even. Men (excuse me.. boys..) like that deserve a kick in their happy places.

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I feel ya on that one. My ex was 7 1/2 years old than me but was the "child" in the relationship and preferred to party, get drunk and all that than taking a few minutes out of his night to even as much as call to check on me or his son even. Men (excuse me.. boys..) like that deserve a kick in their happy places.

 

UGH, I can't believe how slow some people are to mature.... I was willing to make such sacrifices for this guy. He couldn't even make a damn phone call!!

 

School starts Monday. Today's Friday, so that means I have tomorrow and Sunday to get myself prepared for what's in store

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Jen --

 

I don't *know* you, but I have to say you are a very wise woman, especially for someone your age. (Not to say that younger people can't be mature, but...well...I'm pushing "old lady" status here, and I know a lot of people my age who aren't nearly as down-to-earth and smart as you are.)

 

You will DEFINITELY find that person who is right for you. I too thought my ex was "the one," and I still struggle, I still cry sometimes, because can't shake the feeling that he was. But...practically, and logically, I know that there is more than one "one" out there for everyone, and the universe has a way of letting us know that.

 

I hope you are feeling better. I read your sore throat thread, and I felt sooooo bad for you! I am glad you made it to the ER, and I wish you a speedy recovery.

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Thank you SO much for your kind words!!!! Seriously, that is such a sweet post and I appreciate it immensely.

 

Eventually, life will go on for both of us... There MUST be someone out there who will treat us the way we deserve to be treated. I don't know what to believe when it comes to a "Higher Power", but I do feel like the universe has something in store for good people =)

 

Thank you!

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