New years eval needed

[cjt1986]

Ok umm 1st things off happy new years to all.

 

2nd could some1 tell me if things went good tonight w/ my one friend I really like. Ok well story starts last sunday. My friend (who i like very much) Amber invited me and my dad to a local gun club 4 new years so I talked him into goin in hopes get to talk to her. Well she was there and omg she looked great so I ended up getting all jumpy and scared. I finally got to talk 2 her some. There was a band and I cant talk well. Any way told her that she looked real nice 2night n she thanked me 4 that. Few mins l8r I asked if shed toast new years w/ me "oh i cant drink." "no i ment a kiss at 12" "maybe well see" So 12 came around and I was tryin to get her and IDK if she just didnt hear me or didnt want 2 kiss but I couldnt get her. So then I started feeling down and wanted 2 leave. So on the way out I had my dad get her and wished her happy new years n gave her a hug.

 

She has agreed to go out to the movies but this was be4 I said bout 12 kiss. Did I mess things up w/ her?

[waveseer]

It's hard to say how she feels. Time will tell.

[cjt1986]

Well a few months ago my dad asked her if she had a bf n I guess that I wanted to know. She went "awwwww yea" So I have no clue. I dont really have much time though w/ her. She leaves 4 the national guard training camp in SC in April. Call me stupid but Id give nething 4 her felt that way since day 1.

[waveseer]

Id give nething 4 her felt that way since day 1

 

What does this mean?

[cjt1986]

She just does something to me inside. Been really the one person 2 truly make me happy and yet at the same time paralyzed by the fear of losing her.

[waveseer]

Your fear will drive her away, make peace with your future whether she's in it or not and your relationship with her will stand a much better chance.

[cjt1986]

Ill try. Not going to be easy I still feel like I mighta fed up asking 4 that kiss n tryin to get her attention at 12.

[waveseer]

Whatever her feelings were about tonight have already happened, it's in the past and you can't change it. Forgive yourself and let it go, it will only continue to bother you if you don't.

[cjt1986]

Yea i know its just hard 4 me when things go bad cause Im handicapped now and I kinda look at her as like yd she pick me she so much better type thing.