waveseer Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 There used to be a hole in my heart, an empty place that was filled with him before it he wanted out of it. For the longest time it ached, felt hollow, sucked energy from the rest of my body and mind, and generally made me feel somewhat broken and less than whole with an undercurrent of sadness that was perpetual. Where did it go, that hole in my heart? The space has been filled, not with another man but with my love for myself. I am whole now, the broken, slightly empty, and sad feelings have been replaced with acceptance, peace, and love. What an incredible gift to receive on new years eve. You are very lovable ena, thanks for your support. May the new year bring your hearts wholeness and fill them over brimming with love. Link to comment
laisla Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 that's so very sweet. i'm glad you're doing well and healing. happy new year. Link to comment
waveseer Posted January 1, 2009 Author Share Posted January 1, 2009 that's so very sweet. i'm glad you're doing well and healing. happy new year. Thanks, you and other people here have made all the difference. Link to comment
crab62 Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 can you send whatever filled you heart my way, thanks!! Link to comment
waveseer Posted January 1, 2009 Author Share Posted January 1, 2009 can you send whatever filled you heart my way, thanks!! It happened while I wasn't looking. I was just busy taking care of myself and getting on with my life when I noticed that it didn't hurt anymore. I felt around for the hole and it was gone! I allowed myself to feel what was there instead and it was love, the love I have for myself. Link to comment
crab62 Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 It happened while I wasn't looking. I was just busy taking care of myself and getting on with my life when I noticed that it didn't hurt anymore. I felt around for the hole and it was gone! I allowed myself to feel what was there instead and it was love, the love I have for myself. and you just broke up when?, in October. Then you are one month ahead of me... then maybe next month my heart will be filled... oh I wish!! Link to comment
waveseer Posted January 1, 2009 Author Share Posted January 1, 2009 and you just broke up when?, in October. Then you are one month ahead of me... then maybe next month my heart will be filled... oh I wish!! It's a process and it takes what it takes. Coming to ena helped me accept it and trust that I would feel this way eventually. I did have to make some changes in my life to take care of myself better. Link to comment
7ate9 Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 That is so uplifting and great to hear! Thanks for sharing- it gives me hope! Link to comment
PJPaul Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 That's great to hear! You have helped me alot as well! Link to comment
julioiglesia Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 ready2heal. from my observation, you always reply to someone's neeed and you are the first one to do it at ENA. I don't know how you do that you are good. I try to use you as my model. Having inner peace will lead me to inner happiness and fulfillment. Nobody else can do that. happy new years Link to comment
julioiglesia Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 Yea I agree with ready2heal. Coming to ENA on a daily basis I became an expert (self proclaimed lol) on how to heal and the steps needed for salvations from these imaginary sackles (psychosomatic triggers - you think it hurts mentally, and it hurts physically) so most of the thing is mind over body type of things. Everything is in the head. not brushing off the pain is real but sometimes if all of us can do us a favor and do some mind control because part of healing needs strong mind and then body will follow. same thing what a hypochondriac would react. so having peace in mind becaues a lot of the pain most of the times are triggered by our own mind. Guys, the worst has already happened many months or years ago when our ex left us. but our mind tries to relive that painful feelings everyday so we are causing our own pain. It is not the actual break up that hurts the most but what we do next can change the course of how we'll deal with the situation. I think this stuff can transcend not only breaking up but with alot of things in life so I am dilligently try to master all of it and savor each and every details. Link to comment
Eternalhope Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 There used to be a hole in my heart, an empty place that was filled with him before it he wanted out of it. For the longest time it ached, felt hollow, sucked energy from the rest of my body and mind, and generally made me feel somewhat broken and less than whole with an undercurrent of sadness that was perpetual. Where did it go, that hole in my heart? The space has been filled, not with another man but with my love for myself. I am whole now, the broken, slightly empty, and sad feelings have been replaced with acceptance, peace, and love. What an incredible gift to receive on new years eve. You are very lovable ena, thanks for your support. May the new year bring your hearts wholeness and fill them over brimming with love. I am so happy that you have filled the hole with love,love for yourself.I do understand where you are coming from.I am so happy the New Year has come because I did have this ridiculous hope that she just might contact me. But now it has come to pass and I actually feel a lot of relief.I now know that I will survive,because I don't have any other choice,and I like myself too much to give up.Your post was very heart warming.....thank you! Link to comment
OrangeMoon Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 Oh..what a great feeling it is.. I am really happy for you. That feeling of acceptance and love for oneself...very calming. Not planning, not anticipating, just enjoying the moment and being there... What the future will bring, will show itself regardless.. I am happy that you were able to step into this new year centered and at peace.. Best wishes.. Link to comment
Seymore Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 I envy you, ready2heal. I hope I'm in your position soon! Congrats! Link to comment
john4321 Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 thanks for all the inspiration, and congrats on all your success Link to comment
waveseer Posted January 1, 2009 Author Share Posted January 1, 2009 That is so uplifting and great to hear! Thanks for sharing- it gives me hope! You're welcome, I am quite happily amazed too! Link to comment
pumpkinmoon Posted January 1, 2009 Share Posted January 1, 2009 That is great!!! I am very pleased for you Link to comment
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