littlestar Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 The television and the radio mentioning the spot where my ex and i hung out at so much, its where we met and spent most of our time. It's certainly a hot spot. I used to love that place but now i hate it i hate hearing the name of it mentioned. It's all over the radio and the tv I know he still goes there almost everyday and i know he will most probably be there tonight. I am not going out tonight. I am celebrating home with some friends. I feel like absolute crap. Link to comment
chocolates Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 oh i know, new years is a bad time for those who have broken up, and its so friggin hot im sitting here in a pile of sweat... its not only that, its christmas as well. Maybe you should start really focussing on his bad points. I dont know if u have written a list of them already, but I think its time you did........... Link to comment
richie_nut Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 I'm with you there - NY eve is my ex's birthday and this is the first time in 6 years I won't be spending it with him. Plus I have work at 4am tomorrow. So I'm hiding in my room while my mates are downstairs on the piss. Chin up doll. Know that you're not the only one in this boat and all the best for 2009. Link to comment
Bad Wolf Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 Get on the piss, you'll feel better then! Nice to see another kiwi here richie! Link to comment
chocolates Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 Get on the piss, you'll feel better then! Nice to see another kiwi here richie! Yeah get on the piss and break NC and vomit all of tomorrow thru alcohol poisoning and the regret and horror of breaking NC Link to comment
littlestar Posted December 31, 2008 Author Share Posted December 31, 2008 I wasnt going to start drinking till just before midnight but looks like i might start earlier. It's 5 hours to go here now. I feel so upset. Tears keep forming in my eyes. I feel so sad and so depressed. I miss my baby so much. Is it normal to be feeling this bad? Link to comment
littlestar Posted December 31, 2008 Author Share Posted December 31, 2008 Oh god someone help me please. I am on the verge of sending him a text message......Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo cant break 107 days of NC. Far out....What do i do? Link to comment
Bad Wolf Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 throw u fone in the toilet, quickly! Link to comment
littlestar Posted December 31, 2008 Author Share Posted December 31, 2008 throw u fone in the toilet, quickly! LOL i've already broken one phone early on in NC to prevent myself from sending him a message. Oh no! I can really feel i am going to mess up tonight and send a message. Ahhhhhhhhhhh damn it! Link to comment
chocolates Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 Oh god someone help me please. I am on the verge of sending him a text message......Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo cant break 107 days of NC. Far out....What do i do? All this is is societal pressure to be coupled on new years eve. You just have to focus on this scenario: How will you feel if: ok you start drinking now, and by 11:30 think Oh why not i'll give him a call... he answers.. he's pissed, he either blows you off.. you hear a chick in the background (he could be anywhere so you wont know who that is... you start getting desperate... bawling... asking questions... How are you going to feel tomorrow? Link to comment
littlestar Posted December 31, 2008 Author Share Posted December 31, 2008 All this is is societal pressure to be coupled on new years eve. You just have to focus on this scenario: How will you feel if: ok you start drinking now, and by 11:30 think Oh why not i'll give him a call... he answers.. he's pissed, he either blows you off.. you hear a chick in the background (he could be anywhere so you wont know who that is... you start getting desperate... bawling... asking questions... How are you going to feel tomorrow? In all honesty i dont think i could feel much worse than i am now. I am at my lowest low and each day feels like i am sinking to a new low. Man oh man. I never knew it would be this damn hard. I love him so much. Link to comment
chocolates Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 Why? I thought the relationship wasnt so good. Link to comment
littlestar Posted December 31, 2008 Author Share Posted December 31, 2008 Why? I thought the relationship wasnt so good. It had it's faults like any relationship i guess. Link to comment
littlestar Posted December 31, 2008 Author Share Posted December 31, 2008 I am logging off for now. By the time i log back on it will be 2009 here. I am off to get drunk!! Happy New Year all. This NYE sucks worst of all! Link to comment
SighSob Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 Good luck...hope you don't break NC...I sure as hell won't...the thought of guys' voices on the background is scaring me as hell... Link to comment
chocolates Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 I can feel some drunk dialling coming on.... but it might turn out well! Im just being negative.... Link to comment
franfran Posted December 31, 2008 Share Posted December 31, 2008 It had it's faults like any relationship i guess. Littlestar he treated you like crap and you know it, don't lie to yourself. Also, if you think about it this way, that place is probably everyone's hot spot....it wasn't just a place for you and the ex. If I thought about it that way, I know it would help me. Link to comment
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