What is wrong with me?

[limelilies]

Hi people

It has been a very long while for me. It was now been 7 years into my relationship but I'm starting to think that maybe there is something wrong with me. Let me say that my boyfriend is still the same man I met when I was 12 years old at the time while he was of age 22. The story proceeds to me cheating on him 3 yrs. ago, along with losing my virginity to him and then cheating again before high school graduation.

 

The first time it was french kissing but when it happened again it was fonding. Now three months ago, I been at it yet again (almost sex this time but managed to stopped myself), can't seen to stop it. What's wrong with me?

 

Everything in our relationship was fine until I first started cheating on him, being 16 at the time and so I started to change from then on. I'm planning to tell him about everything I done though.

 

I do not know what is it that makes me want to keep exploring around, it's like I'm starting to have the mindset of a player and can't stop it, HELP. Was something in my youth snatched?

 

Any advice on this one

[ponyboy]

Theres just something wrong about you being 12 and him being 22 when you started.

[limelilies]

Theres just something wrong about you being 12 and him being 22 when you started.

 

So could that be the reason I'm now behaving like this?

[ponyboy]

So could that be the reason I'm now behaving like this?

 

I couldnt tell you why you behave the way you do lol.

Just doesnt seem like your ready to be in an exclusive relationship.

[karvala]

So could that be the reason I'm now behaving like this?

 

I think that's certainly a distinct possibility, for two reasons. One is that you haven't experienced any other guys outside of cheating since puberty, and you're coming to the age where you will really want to. The other is that you must, surely, have some doubts in your mind, about a guy (your bf) who, aged 22, starts a relationship with a 12-yr old. Honestly, 7 years on, what do you feel about that?

[limelilies]

you must have some doubts about a guy (your bf) who, aged 22, starts a relationship with a 12-yr old. Honestly, 7 years on, what do you feel about that?

 

I feel like I miss out on something and now I can't get back those years.

 

Today I finally end up telling him every cheating episode from the time I first cheated on him when I was 16 till the lastest being 3 months ago. In a way he understood why I needed to explode around considering I was only 12 at the time. I was amaze that he was not at all shock but rather stated that now he feels bad for robbing me 7 years of my life and how he should not have gotten involve with a minor.