I want to live in a home, not a house

[winter whiteout]

Here I am not able to get out of my townhouse due to a huge snowdrift that I can't find anyone to shovel. I was suppose to have a washer and dryer delivered tomorrow but I had to cancel due to the snow. Sorry had to let that out.

 

I have to work Christmas Eve until 5:30 and then on Christmas Day early because we on are mandatory overtime. I am going home Christmas Eve night because it will be too late to drive all the way to my brother's. On Christmas Day I will go to my sister's when I get out of work. Of course I will alone for the 3rd year since my ex left. Being lonely has taken on a whole new meaning for me lately. I was thinking I want a man to go out and have fun with, build a relationship and then have hot sex when the time is right. Although I want those things what I really want is to have a family of my own again. I want to be in a home, not just a house. I grew up with a big extended family and then was married with a family of my own but it has been 3 years since my ex husband left. I am 45 years old now and it feels like I am going backwards thinking about dating again but I really want to be with someone who is right for me and who wants a real relationship and to build a life and home with me.

 

I know just because I want it does not mean it is going to happen. But I guess I can say I know what I want now and can't settle for less. I was talking about missing sex for the longest time but what I miss more is being in the arms of a loving man who is my partner. I don't want to live in just a house, I want to live in a home.

[Crazyaboutdogs]

I hear you...but your house is your home...it has your stuff..it is decorated the way you want it...it is cosy and warm. You may be one person, but it is your home, not just a house. Lots of people have families who are at each other's throats...they may live together but the home is not warm and inviting, it is filled with strife. Your home is peaceful because there is no strife...it is warm and inviting. I know how lonely it can get...but don't focus on what you don't have...focus on what you do have...a great place to live set up the way you want it.

[JadedStar]

I agree with CAD. I have lived single, and i have lived in a relationship. Either/or my house is/was always my home. A home is what you make it. Even the times i was single i made sure my house was my home and had my comforts and was my nest to snuggle in during the storm, metaphorically speaking.

[annie24]

awwwww!!!! hang in there!!! sorry about having to work, but the upside is that you have a job. and sorry about the lack of dating prospects - but the plus side is that it seems you have a loving family!!!! it will be ok, maybe 2009 will be better for you? hugs

[redhearts]

Get some puppies!

[thejigsup]

I was 43 and while I considered my apartment my home, I wanted to share my life with someone special. I made a vow on New Year's Eve that I would find someone special who was worth my attention. In November of that year, after aggressively attacking the dating curcuit, I found him and we are still together, nine years later. Men who appreciate older women are the best!

[hmdreamer7]

But I guess I can say I know what I want now and can't settle for less.

 

I'm so sorry you've been feeling 'snowed out' lately, in more ways than one...! But you also sound like a strong-willed woman, having a temporary moment of weakness. I think some people who don't know what they want are more relaxed about going into a relationship, compared to some people who know exactly what they want, and are looking for just that. Your ideal man is more specific, which makes him harder to find, but that doesn't mean you will never find him. Don't give up on the things you want from life, and from a man... he's out there!

 

And while you're looking, I'd definitely go with redhearts on the puppies... puppies & kittens, they're the best

[TexasDad]

"Home is where the heart is"

 

 

I totally get what you are saying...