Why shouldn't I kill myself?

[Regenesis]

A while ago I said that even if I had two suicide attempts,I wont try again.

But the fact is that I really don't see any reasons to live.I feel worthless and I feel that I do not deserve to live.I have made only trouble to my parents(especially since I broke their heart with my suicide attempts) and I know that I am not good for nothing.I just don't know why should I live on.

I know I am not loveable,and I know that I can't make anyone happy.For example,if you have read my thread "I hate girlsl"you realize that I am just a anormal twisted guy that will never be able to do anything good.

Also the sex problem makes me feel worse.I know that I said in that thread that I hate girls for having sex,but I noticed that I became distant from the few friends that I had because I knew they were not virgins anymore(boys)

I feel that I do not fit in.I think sex is anormal and disgusting,and at the same time I want to have sex but I know I wont.And I also don't want to have sex because I am afraid I will change somehow,since that is probably why I hate others,because I think they will change,and because I consider they are some erotic MF's and I dont want to be one.And at the same time I want sex.

Only by reading what I said you can realize that I deserve to die.

I honestly don't see why I should live.I just can't go on like that.

[paintedfish]

Ill tell you the same stuff that youve heard a million times about how sex is a personal choice, and youre free to have your own opinions and standards about it. What is it about sex you feel is so disgusting? Youre only 17, I know people (male and female) that were much older when they finally decided they were ready. People will do what they do, and their sex life is their own business, as is yours. Please dont let it stress you out.

 

Why do you feel so twisted? What makes you worthless?

[Luke Skywalker]

The Bible says that you should get married and then have sex. Your parents had sex which is why you were born. thereforee, within marriage context, sex is alright. Outside of marriage is a pandora's box -- because you are out of line with the word of God. Just as you see sex, God also sees it the same way and doesn't like to see unmarried people having sex as He too thinks that it is disgusting and abnormal -- what is normal is married people having sex. Do you not see it the way God sees it?

 

Next, if you kill yourself, then you have to consider where you'll end up. You are making an assumption that you'll die and that will be the end of anything. But what if you are wrong? Suppose you end up in hell and are surrounded by fire and you cant get out? Then what are you going to do then? It is not God's will for you to kill yourself, nor His will for you to have sex. His will is for you to receive Jesus into your life and to ask Him to help find you a wife that you can marry her and then have a family and have sex the right way.

[Regenesis]

The Bible says that you should get married and then have sex. because you are out of line with the word of God. Just as you see sex, God also sees it the same way and doesn't like to see unmarried people having sex as He too thinks that it is disgusting and abnormal -- what is normal is married people having sex. Do you not see it the way God sees it?

I am atheist.If all you will gonna do is to tell me with a fairitale,thats your job.I dont have to listen to this.I am serious.I am sick of christians that spam me with their religion.

BTW,acording to the bible,about 90% of peoples go to hell.All those that are not christians,and most of christians.Espect to see your loved ones in hell,and maybe you also.You might say that God is loving and most go to heaven and only some in hell,but you should know that until 1800,christianity was a religion of terror.Just remember inquisition and crusades.

The new loving god [is recenlty created.In the past,he was a cruel revenging bastard.

My sister killed herself because of the fear of hell.This is what religion is good.For making peoples lifes miserable.All it makes is to say we are sinners,bad and it also says to kill all those that are not christians,but you dont see that in church,dont ya?You should read the bible.You can find many cruelties in the new testament also.Like,you should stone you children if they behaved bad.So,c'mon take some rocks.

Youknow who likes to kill peoples with stones and burn them forever in hell?The devil.

BTW,I hate married peoples just as well.I ont give a damn if they are married or ot.

[Honey Pumpkin]

Hi there,

 

Are you able to talk to someone in real life about these feelings? They are very intense, and I can see how it would make you unhappy and miserable. Do you have a teacher or family member you could confide in, just so you feel less alone?

[Regenesis]

Did something happen in your life to make you hate sex?

I first have seen a porn movie when I was 15.I really was surprised,because I didnt really knew how it is done.Also,I didnt knew the penetration is that deep.I also didnt knew about oral sex.When I saw a porn movie,I was surprised that humans do that.

Maybe that is the reason.But I dont know.

[Regenesis]

OK...but why is it bad?

I dont know.

[cyberdog]

I've caused quite some trouble for my parents as well and sometimes I feel bad with regards to it. But really who hasn't cause problems for their parents to some degree or another. Other times I find myself feeling low and worthless. It doesn't happen often but sometimes. For the past several days it has been as such. But I don't really consider suicide an option. I know that a good night sleep and when I wake up in the morning with a fresh mind I will see things better and feel better. Also I'm typically cooped indoors most of the time, but I find spending about 30 minutes a day outdoors helps me feel better about myself and life in general. With regards to religion I don't subscribe to any particular 'belief'. But I still consider life well worth living.

[doityourself]

If I could just stick my nose in here,

 

I think that you a confused 17 year old boy, I think that when time passes you will understand that sex is an action to show love and passion to your life partner. I think that maybe you have some life questions to ask yourself. Maybe your future is going to be with your church, where sex isn't appropriate. Right now your hormones and everything are going crazy.

 

I dont know if something happen to you when you were a child and thats what is giving you these thoughts, but sex is a natural thing. You may see your friends hoeing (what I like to call it) around and maybe thats what has thrown you off. Sex is something that should not be used or abused, it should be shared with someone you love.

[thefoot]

because you're still looking for reasons. you know theres things worth living for. The things you want to do, the people you want to meet, the places you want to see... the love of your life. You'll find it, and you know it deep down.

 

you're not done yet.