Update - the Hope continues ...

[Deckard]

Ok - an update for the ENA community. At the end of the month I will be 5 months NC. I was crucified, descended into Hell and am at some point in my ascension. Your guess is as good as mine. I burned, I bled, I cried, I drank (and drank some more) - well you guys get the picture - but I did not break NC. And I did some very hard work on myself. It was pattern interruption time and I went there. It almost killed me.

 

Anyway, I reconnected last week with a woman who was always of interest but either in another country or one of us was in a relationship. I have had zero interest in women despite the many good intentioned efforts of friends. When I saw her and hugged her that all changed and something came back alive that I thought my ex had extinguished forever.

 

I am 4 dates in and I am doing nothing but tell the truth and be completely authentic which would have been impossible before my ex fire-bombed my soul because I did not know who the F*** I was anymore. I would never have believed I would be writing this post 2 months ago. There is hope and we'll all get there - but we will all be better people for the hell of being dumped. Nomistae.

[Grace]

Good to hear.

 

I think thats one of the harder parts of healing, after a breakup hope is defined as the possibility of getting the ex back, but at some point the meaning of hope needs to be redefined as getting your life and happiness back.