help me please

[tinababe]

i have been feeling really depressed lately and was excited to realize that my first therapy appointment was this morning. i have been waiting for this appointment for almost a month and a half. the first time i went about a month adn a half ago, it ended up being a group therapy thing so i got up and left. I wasnt planning on going back until i decided i needed to tlak to someone. so i called back, told them about my uncomfortable experience and they booked an appointment for today. But i woke up this morning to a phone call saying that they had to cancel my appointment and that she didn't have any open appointments so they would call me back later. no call back yet, i know i will have to wait another month before the ball gets rolling but i dont know if i have the guts to make another appointment. it was hard enough for me the first and second time. I really needed someone to talk to. and today was supposed to be the day and now its not and i feel like God just hates me and is doing everything in his power to make sure i never get better! my best friend is in the air force and is unable to communicate right now so life just sucks. ive been dealing with suicidal thoughts as well but i figured the talk today would help those diminish for a little while.

 

then i call to get my refill for my keppra which i take for epilepsy and i decide to do the automatic refill but the automated voice told me i didnt have an extra refills, but it said i did on the box. so i called the pharamacy and tlaked to someone and she said she would have to get it approved by the doctor. i have been epileptic my entire life, sionce i was 17 months old, i shouldn't need to get it approved to get my daily medicine. and on top of that it is special order so she said it would take up to 2 weeks....except i only have enough medicine for a week and a half which means i am going to feel so sad and depressed and more unhealthy thoughts will enter my mind like they always do when my medicine fluctuates. im going to be alone over the break from school. all my roommates are gone, which is kinda good, but it scares me at the same time. i always feel the worst when i am not taking my medicine. this is too much for me to take.

[talo]

I'm not sure where you are but here in New Zealand, I would ring my Doctor's nurse and ask her what to do about the medication.

[ErikT]

i I really needed someone to talk to. and today was supposed to be the day and now its not and i feel like God just hates me and is doing everything in his power to make sure i never get better! my best friend is in the air force and is unable to communicate right now so life just sucks. ive been dealing with suicidal thoughts as well but i figured the talk today would help those diminish for a little while.

 

First, call the suicide hotline in your area. You will be able to talk to someone who can help you and help those thoughts diminish, as well as direct you to any other assistance you need.

 

Second, I believe that God only gives us what He knows we can handle. So don't look at it as God hating you, but God giving you the challenge that He knows you can overcome.

 

As for your meds, call your doctor for some help. Also, call around and see if any of the other pharms have it in stock or can get it quicker. I have never heard of any med taking 2 weeks to get in stock.

 

Call the hotline now. It can't hurt and can only help.

[waveseer]

Have your pharmacy call around to find another pharmacy that has your medication in stock.

[IndigoEye]

If you don't have anyone to talk to over the break, you're welcomed to PM me for any reason, any time. I have to miss going home as well for medical reasons. Will be here.

 

My Rx is very helpful. He just said that's a med you should not miss or go partial on, and that they usually would give a few days worth until the scrip came in. Can you work this with your Rx?