my Poem...(long rant)

[gwakie]

Welcome to my world of nightmare fairytales

Watching someone I love, love someone else

 

Mornings hurt the most, everyday I wake

Realizing it wasn't a dream, this heartbreak

 

Staring at the ceiling, I'm wide awake

Hiding all these emotions that I can't take

 

You still haunt me every night in my dreams

I wake up to cold sweats and silent screams

 

I'm trying to make sense of all this nonsense

I'm trying to find my lost innocence

 

Sunlight creeps in, shadows on the wall

No, not today, lay me down as I fall

 

Toss the sheets off me, I'm trying to get up

Never in my life have I had it so rough

 

Down in my darkest hours, I can't make it

Trying to be happy, but I can't fake it

 

Like a moth to a flame, looking for light

You brought me up to unknown heights

 

Remembering your love, it gave me butterflies

Nothing but sadness now, no more sweet lullabies

 

Reaching out, wanting to feel your touch

Only to realize that I miss you so much

 

On good days I feel numb, the pain is gone

I think and I try, but I can't seem to move on

 

Cause you left me alone in this dark alley

With nothing but misery as my only company

 

Phone in my hand, I'm waiting for it to ring

Days and nights go by and still nothing

 

I can’t help it, I still think about you everyday

I can’t stop it, I still love you in every possible way

 

Miss seeing your car in the driveway, knowing you're home

Miss hearing your sweet voice when we talk on the phone

 

A chapter of your life, a moment in time

A chapter of my life, a moment in mine

 

My heart won't let me let you go

That you don't love me, it doesn't know

 

I don't want to love you anymore but I do

It'll be over when my heart knows it's through

 

But that doesn't take away from pain that I feel

Years of memories, they all still feel so surreal

 

Residual sadness, all I can find within me

Do as you must, as long as your happy

 

Our time is over, you don't love me, so you decide

Heartbreak me you did, with tears in my eyes

 

What happened, what changed your mind

When did your love become the unloving kind

 

False hope I get when I finally hear from you

Grabbing your stuff was all you wanted to do

 

What did I do wrong, let me take it all back

Our fairytale story isn't supposed to end like that

 

How do you decide to throw away five years

When you're sitting there filled with tears

 

Its been so long since I felt your love for me

What was it between us that I couldn't see

 

For months I've waited on the sidelines

Let me catch my breath while my heart flat lines

 

Why'd you keep me around for so long

Just to wait for something better to come along

 

Just found out you're now in a new relationship

Been flying out to see him, taking little trips

 

How can a broken heart break again

Twice the pain, you'll never be forgiven

 

Does he love you, like I love you

Walk to the ends of the earth like I would do

 

Mask my pain as sadness washes over me

What I was blind to before, now I see clearly

 

Shadow of my former self, an emotional mess

All I ever needed was your sweet caress

 

Quit putting up walls that I keep tearing down

You're only adding fuel to the fire as we both drown

 

The emotional aftermath, the man you've made me become

I once had it all together, now all coming undone

 

You couldn't imagine, dealing with this heartbreak

A lesson I learned in life, a bit too late

 

I've tried, but I can't save you from yourself

To make you see what I can see, what else

 

I can feel the storm coming, it'll be here soon

I can see the clouds rolling in, hiding the moon

 

Go ahead and leave, walk out that door

Don't turn back, don’t care to ever see you anymore

 

Love is long gone, the pain still lingers here

What can I do to shed this last single tear

 

I'm sorry it worked out the way that it did

If I knew what was wrong, I would fix it

 

If you're not happy, then it wasn't meant to be

A sad fact, hurts to know that you don't want me

 

You've moved on, you don't love me, you don't care

So I'll take me heart, take my love with me, elsewhere

 

Life is full of choices, choose so you won't regret

For pain is a mistress that won't forgive or forget

 

Because it'll be alright, one day I'll be ok

Letting go is the first step, I'm on my way

 

The sun will still shine, life will still go on

Time to get back on my feet and start moving on

 

In the future, will our paths ever cross again

So we say our goodbyes for now, until then

[Wmast]

I enjoyed reading your poem and I feel your pain bro. Take it one day at a time and you'll make it through.

Good luck!

[Ideal]

Wow...I love this poem. It's amazing, it makes want to cry...I feel your pain so well.