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Don't know how to feel about Christmas anymore.


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I always use to be Mr. Christmas as my mother called me when I was little. I was the Christmas buff that always tried to bring it to the fam. Fast forward years later, I'm 28, parents are split up for the greater good, older brother is a tempermental jerk bag, so it's just me and my mom for Thanksgiving and Christmas. Every Christmas in my early years, I was always so selfless, planning on gifts for friends and loved ones. Here's the best reference for you, I would go "Clark Griswold" every year. I'd sneak around investigating to find what was best for each friend and loved one. I was good at it.

 

But what is Christmas to me now? It's become a time of the year that reminds me the most of how badly I want to start a family to give Christmas to. My mother doesn't care for putting up the tree anymore. EVery year it's just working Christmas Eve, and Day for the time and a half. The holiday now just feels like another work day, feels empty, because I'm not a kid or teenager anymore.

 

This year I feel like I don't know how to ask anymore of what my close people want for Christmas. I don't know if I can ask my close friend (also former gf) what she'd want for Christmas, and I want to snail mail her a gift, it would bring me joy to send her something at least. But it's like do you have your friends LIST what they want and you think and pick something to get them? Isn't the most treasuring way of gift giving something they don't expect?

 

And most of all...I espically...don't know what I would want for Christmas. I don't want to speak out loud of possessions I'd want, and then then none of them come to me, and I get my hopes up. Is it considered low self esteem to not want to say what you want as a gift just cause you don't want to show yourself as self-centered?

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Holiday time makes a lot of people think about what they don't have. But maybe, instead of that, you should use it as an early new years and set some goals for how NEXT christmas can be better?

 

Also, nothing wrong with saying what gifts you'd like.

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I've never had someone buy me a personal gift, one that took forethought and was tailored somehow to me personally.

 

I learned that if I want something I'd better plan how to get it myself.

 

I like to give edible gifts because if they are good, people really enjoy and remember them. Once they are consumed they require no storage and nobody has to go nuts finding them 4 years later when I stop by for a visit.

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i don't know if it's just because i'm getting older, but i've noticed that for the past couple of years, Christmas has lost all of it's magic. In general. There seems to be a lot less people lighting their houses with pretty decorations. A lot less family get-togethers. A lot less passing someone on the street and saying "Merry Christmas!"

 

It seems like everybody I talk to about this agrees with me. I feel like the attitude of the world in general has gotten so blase. Last year for Thanksgiving I went to ESPN zone and drank a beer with my boyfriend. And that was it.

 

Even Halloween, I only had one trick or treater come to my door when I usually have what feels like a thousand.

 

I'm sorry about how you're feeling, holidays really are a terrible time for people who are feeling down.

 

Is it just me though, or has holiday spirit really gone out the window lately?

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I've never had someone buy me a personal gift, one that took forethought and was tailored somehow to me personally.

 

I learned that if I want something I'd better plan how to get it myself.

 

I like to give edible gifts because if they are good, people really enjoy and remember them. Once they are consumed they require no storage and nobody has to go nuts finding them 4 years later when I stop by for a visit.

 

ready2heal you are so cool.

 

i think around holiday/christmas time, there are a lot of people like yourself who find themselves with no one to really share that joy of festive spirit and giving with. dont get me wrong, i personally cant stand christmas. its so darn commercial for so many people + families that the true spirit of helping those in need evaporates [with that said, my family and i donate to charity so dont think im one of those passive whiners about it] but that aside, man, you seem like someone i would want to actually celebrate christmas with because of the thoughtfulness and care you seem to possess for it. its a shame you feel this way...have you considered doing voluntary work on christmas day, or even joining one of those cool door to door christmas singalong groups?? that would be a cool way of getting some social activity and fun in christmas.

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i can relate. as we get older, christmas does not have the same magic...maybe that is because so much of it is directed for kids.

christmas can be a really stressful time, i know it always has been for my family - and rarely do we all get the "right" gifts, but in the end - time spent, a card written, a pie baked, a coffee bought means so much more to me than those gifts.

as adults we are generaly not to speak of gifts we want (this is more for kids). if ur asked, why not thought?

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I am so sorry to hear of your story... it seems you're very enthusiastic about Christmas...

 

How about spending it with some disadvantaged children? I saw some kids being treated to a very good Halloween by my University, and they seemed very happy. Perhaps find an orphanage and try to celebrate Christmas with them? You'd be decorating with people that would be just as enthusiastic as you probably (and hey you might make new friends you can celebrate with)... In my opinion, it's the greatest gift the world can give to you when you helped disadvantaged people, especially children, have something special for the holidays...

 

It's just an idea though...

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The older you get this stuff happens. Funny you mentioned Clark Griswold. LOL My kids called me the female version of Clark. I too was the christmas guru. i have found, however, that iwth eery passing year it fades a little as in the whole big shebang and production, but the thought and meaning of christmas remains alive and strong and now my thoughts about the holiday are more introspective vs going all out decorating the house with a million lights or decorating every corner of the house and spending a ton on gifts. Now it is more quiet and understated and i enjoy going to the nutcracker and transiberian orchestra shows to get my spirit jazzed, i like to get in the car iwht my SO and go do the christmas light tours, and just take in the season. I don't do as much as in the production of it but feel just as good about it.

 

I just hate to hear so much bah humbug out of people who really forget the true meaning. so many people forget that there is a reason for the season. now for those who are non religious i don't expect that they remember or even care but for some who do believe in the reason for it just seem to forget that it is a time to be giving, not a time to just get disgruntled over their wallet. People gripe about the commercialism of it - they don't have to be commercial. if they get sucked into that it is their own fault. The retailers could not exploit the unexploitable.

 

Someone mentioned spending sometime with disadvantaged children. that is an excellent idea. There is nothing that can give you the spirit like helping others. Adopt a salvation army tree kid if you can't actually get out there and visit with children.

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Thanks DC. I have plans for myself for Chrismas and really all holidays. Either I spend them with my children or I participate in my hobby. I would love to share my hobby with you on Christmas, it's way more fun when you take someone along. It might be tough to get together though, since the Pacific is deep and wide.

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Thanks DC. I have plans for myself for Chrismas and really all holidays. Either I spend them with my children or I participate in my hobby. I would love to share my hobby with you on Christmas, it's way more fun when you take someone along. It might be tough to get together though, since the Pacific is deep and wide.

 

and i havent swum in years.

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