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it has been about three weeks since my break up, one week with nc. i get that he's not coming back because he doesn't want to come back. i'm just really struggling with how he could have strung me along for perhaps over a year without ever saying anything.... the end came when he started cutting me out over six weeks and then i just needed the closure of ending things.


how do you get over the feelings that you weren't good enough, that he lied to you for so long, and that feeling that even though he sucks.... i still wish he would realize what he lost and miss me?


i think i've asked these questions in a lot of ways on here.... but i'm just starting to deal with the fact that there is no hope, he doesn't miss me, and he doesn't want me back.


thanks everyone.

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Hi there,

Well, since I have the exact same thoughts as you, I can at least tell you that you are not the only one feeling this way. I guess only time will help us let go of this need for them to want us back. I know, its just so hard to comprehend that they feel they can go on without us. But they are...there's nothing we can do to control this situation. And the loss of control, if I'm honest with myself, is what scares me the most...he's forgetting me, and there is not one thing I can do about it but wait until I'm not in love with him anymore.

I don't think he lied to you, and I don't think he strung you along, he was with you for a year and tried to make it work because obviously he thought you were worth the effort and he cared for you, but it just didn't work. That doesn't mean you are meaningless to him. We do not need for them to miss us, or want us back to know that we meant something to them. We need to realise that we meant the world to them at one point and their feelings changed for some reason and thats that.

I reckon that knowing that its over, and that my fella is not coming back, as much as it hurts (and sometimes makes me feel like I'll go crazy) - that's whats going to help me move on, now all we have left to do is wait it out. Until we're just tired of struggling with these thoughts and feelings. Until we free ourselves from them. I'm right there with you, and I totally relate. One step at a time.

Wishing us both luck and strength


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i find this helps me sometimes,

I've been on this site for almost four months now. When I found it, I was sure that absolutely no one in the world had ever, or would ever, experience the pain that I was feeling after my break up. Funny. I found a virtual world full of folks who have gone through and experienced the same things and felt the same feelings that I did. That helped a lot.


So, for all you newbies who ask the questions, "Will the hurting ever stop," or "Will my ex come back," or "Why did he/she do this," this is how it typically goes down.


You two break up--doesn't matter who does it. You immediately panic and begin chasing, begging, pleading, harassing, phoning, e-mailing, IMing, stalking (okay not all of them, just pick whichever one you did). Most of us will likely do some things during this stage that will make you cringe when you think back on it, say after about 3 months.


You lose weight. You neglect yourself, your house, your job (how many hours do we all log on this site while we are at work?). You drive your friends and family crazy talking about the break up. You cry at the drop of a dime. You can't even comprehend that your life might not again include that "special person." You begin putting them on a pedestal, forgetting all of the nagging things about them that used to drive you crazy. In your mind, they have become omnipotent, all encompasing, all everything.


You convince yourself that you are a loser who just screwed up a relationship with "the best person in the world." You KNOW without a doubt that you will never EVER love like that again. You know no one else will come along who even comes close to being as marvelous as your ex (excuse me while I chuckle to myself here). You wear a sad face for the world to see (you should see my work ID taken 2 days after my breakup, it's just pitiful).


They (the ex's) remain steadfast in their denial to get back together. Many of them leapfrog into new relationships, immediately being exclusive with a new person. For those that do leapfrog, they appear to just "replace" you with a new model. All of the things you two used to do, they now do with someone else. Bowling, cuddling watching television, motorcycle riding, antiquing. Whatever you two did, likely they will just begin doing those things with someone new.


You hear about them and their new life. You are desperate for any crumbs of news about their life. Many of us make things worse here by trying to use manipulation to get them back--yet they stay away from us like we are the plague.


For those of us who do still have contact with our ex's we begin selling ourselves short. Doing stupid things like allowing them access to our bodies and then wanting to strangle them afterward when they remind us that "Sex does not imply hope."


You, in further panic mode, begin frantically searching the internet using phrases such as "break ups," "divorce stopper," whatever. You stumble upon this site, pay your money because your curious and lo and behold, you find all of us folks in various stages of this whole breakup bullsh*t.


You voraciously read the posts. You search for news of those who "got their mates back." You're on the site constantly. You'll read the books and think "Ah I can do this. I can get this person back." You begin your "no contact" and for some of us, this will get a reaction from our ex's. For the rest, no contact is and will continue to be what you'll get and receive.


Time goes by. You'll do some stupid things. You'll call your ex when you shouldn't. You'll call when you've had to much to drink. You'll call even after 50 people on this site tell you not to. You'll show up on their doorstep, hating yourself all the time. Then you'll come back to this site and ask everyone to tell you why you were so stupid as to do whatever it was you did.


Then you'll get serious about no contact. It'll hurt, but you try to stick to it. Here's the turning point for most. For those folks who have contact with their ex's, your no contact will either bring them sniffing curiously around or they'll be somewhere high fiving their friends thanking the God's that you haven't called.


Now's the tough time. Nothing but time works. Everday the ache in your heart grows a little less. It's only nanobits that it dies down by. But everyday it will get slowly better. You'll have setbacks. You'll run into your ex accidently. You'll run into mutual friends who'll tell you something about your ex that'll have you high-tailing it home for a good cry. You'll see your ex with their new "friend." You'll receive a phone call or an e-mail from your ex who "doesn't want to be in a relationship but still wants to be friends (with benefits if you allow).


Here's another important part. You need to truly sit down and truthfully look back at the relationship and understand what you did to help with it's demise. If you miss this part, you go through all the suffering for nothing because Buddy, you'll be back here again. This site is to teach you about you. To teach you how to be a better partner, a better person. Missing that lesson is detrimental to the whole process. It's the REASON that you're going through this. God (or whatever your higher power is) needed you to learn something about YOU. Don't miss out on the lesson.


Then one day you'll smile because you didn't immediately check your answering machine when you came in. And one day you'll decide to clean the muck that has accumulated in your house. And one day you'll go outside and admit to the universe that you surrender what control you thought you had.


And one day you'll decide to date again. And one day you'll go out on your first date and it will likely be a disaster. And then you'll either force yourself to continue dating or you'll decide that you aren't ready to date but you are ready to be out amongst people again. And many of you will have some quick reconcillations with your ex's. Many of us won't. But one day, it won't matter as much. Because time will allow you to catch yourself going minutes and then hours without thinking of the ex. And you'll begin to be able to think of life possibly without that person and not dissolve into a puddle of nothingness because of the thought.


And for most of us, sadly, life will go on without that mate. That's the truth, amigos. Don't want to dash your hopes but probably less than 3% of the people on this site get back with their mates. Sobering isn't it? But, as the site instructs, you must accept this before you can truly begin to heal or draw your ex back to you. For the lucky (maybe unlucky one's depending on how much work it will take to keep a mate that has wandered back) who get back with their ex's, many will find that the paradise they envisioned isn't reality and what they once thought was gold has a certain tarnish to it now. But they stay and try and make it work because it's comfortable or, if they are really lucky, it's meant to be.


But for most of us. Life goes on. And one day you'll find yourself having a gut busting laugh over something totally stupid and you'll think to yourself "I am getting better." And finally (thank God) you'll have sex with some new and find that a) if it wasn't good, at least you did it or b) it was so much better than with your ex you wonder why you waited so long to get back out there. And you'll know you're one the road to recovery.


I guess what I'm trying to convey here is, while each situation is unique, the characteristics of most of our situations are the same. Most of us will go through at least something that I've written here. So, when someone tells you on this site that time will help you get through it, believe them. When they tell you that "trust me, it will get better and you will stop hurting eventually," believe them. And when they give you good advice that your head understands but your heart rejects, take a moment to think before you react.


Don't beat yourself up if you do something that you wished you hadn't (calling, contacting, etc) WE ALL DID AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER. Be kind to yourself. Be forgiving of yourself. And most of all remember that being happily single is an alternative. Even if society is beating it into your head that you MUST have a mate, take some time to heal before going back out there. There are plenty of good people to love, but don't go back out there broken, jaded about love, etc. Accept realty. Experience the pain. Learn the lesson. Actively try to heal. Remember the person you were when you first met your ex and get that person back.


And the universe will take care of the rest."

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Life's way to short to mourn someone who decided they were better off without us. I don't do that. I know I have only so many days to be on this earth and I refuse to waste precious time crying or feeling bad when there are beaches to still sit on, amusement parks to still visit, friends to laugh with, life to embrace, and new adventures to go on, if we will just do it. I do learn from my past, don't get me wrong. But I refuse to suffer to get there. I haven't done that in years! I did learn and my past few relationships have been with wonderful men who truly loved me. Nothing in life is permanent, so we have to enjoy everything while we are here.

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You will find all the answers at soul-mate-finds-you where there is a free anxiety reduction method taught that works in seconds/minutes. You will not believe this until you try it, but all your feelings are just that. Feelings & emotions. At the momment most of them are excessive and that causes you pain, but you will be able to reduce them to normal and completely get over it plus have a lot more confidence than you ever had before. It is truly amazing.

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hurtandused - your post helped me so much! i laughed at a lot of it. i've have been there before, and gone through a lot of that stuff! and you are right, eventually you *do* come out on the other side of all that struggle and grief, even if the process isn't "pretty".


i am going through another break up and going through some of these things again, so it was helpful for me to be reminded that it won't be like this forever. the best part is knowing that one day i will actually have a clean house again!

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hurtandused, thank you so much for your words. i feel so torn over wanting him to come back, knowing he won't, and beating myself up for wanting to contact him (yet knowing i can't). i'm glad there are real stages, and that i won't feel like this forever. thank you again for sharing this.

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What you are feeling is totally normal, I agonised over the same thoughts you are having right now for months and months and it was far from fun. After 4 months he came back then dumped me again 2 months later.


I was annoyed at myself for letting him do it to me a second time but I was glad that it happened because it really opened my eyes to the kind of person he is. You may wish that he would come back but I can tell you from experience that when it actually happens it isn't all it's cracked up to be.


One day you will feel much better, these thoughts will pass eventually and you will start to realise your self worth. It may take a few months like it did with me but you will get there. You can even start now by making a list of all the things you think make you a great person

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i think it hurts so much because i let him become my life. my whole world and all of my future plans revolved around him.


Same here. I to made my future for "us". Now I have to re-focus on a future for me. I gave her my all after she asked for it. then left me.

Hurts like no other pain.

I hope I wake up tomorrow and not think about her. This has to end now. Its been 5 weeks and only getting worse.

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