I think I'm a lesbian :(

[Cindy_Kehler_20031607306448]

I've got kind of an embarrassing question, but I just need to know. I think that I may be a Lesbian, I prefer to look at girls and stare at them (their butts, clevage, or anything), I mean I already have a boyfriend but when I'm with him I'm just not interested in him. when he kisses me I keep my eyes open and sometimes push away.

 

I told my bestest girl-friend about it and she said "Well lets find out" and she kissed me and I so totally liked it It felt incredible I never felt that with my boyfriends, then we made Love and I totally loved that too. but afterwards I felt that it was wrong and I felt dirty and embarrased. when I saw her the next day I just walked away. But I really like my best friend though, I have no trouble being a Lesbian but I just want to know if its the right thing to do. people will think that I'm weird and crazy or something.

[SwingFox]

Heeeey Cindy,

 

First of all, I have to correct you in something... I do NOT find you strange, in fact, I find it prejudice when people say things like that. The reason behind that is because gay relationships are not fully accepted yet, although mankind is doing better in the year 2003. Besides that... who cares if someone thinks your strange? Before mermayd starts to quote me again ... *grins, heheh ... j/k*, I can safely tell you this: The only obligation YOU have in life, is the obligation for YOU to be happy. If YOU are not happy, you cannot make someone else happy. I would stop worrying about what OTHER people think of you.

 

Now what?

First of all, you have to be sure if you really are into girls more. The signs say that you are. On top of that, I would consider the feelings of your current boyfriend. No matter what, you already cheated on him. Making love is making love, regardless whether that was with another woman or another man. I hope you are going to face him and be totally honest towards him, so that the heartbreak for him is minimized and he can start a healing process.

 

Bottom line of this posting:

1) You are not alone in your feelings towards women.

2) Your feelings towards women are NOT strange.

3) You shouldn't feel embarrassed or bad

4) Be happy over yourself. If that means your lesbian ... so what?

5) Be honest with your b/f. He deserves your honesty.

 

I hope this was of help for you and wish you good luck and a HAPPY life!

 

~ SwingFox ~

[Santa]

I agree with ^^^^^^^^

Is your best mate a lesbian too then?

[dave..yep..dave]

well i prefer the company of girls also (thean again i am a guy) dont be embarrased it may be a phase or it may be for real. just go with your feelings and dont worry what others think.

[bleeder]

SwingFox said it well.

 

Being aware of your own sexuality is nothing embarrassing. Being honest with yourself is important here. Imagine having a string of relationships with guys later, only to find them failing because of your suppressed sexual preferences. That, is not very clever yah?

 

In the end, be happy.

[Cindy_Kehler_20031607306448]

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR YOUR ENCOURAGING WORDS!!! , it really helped me to get this straightened out. Well I told my boyfriend mark about the whole thing and all he did the entire time was pretty much stnad there and look like this , but he was really sweet about it afterwards. he just smiled and said "Cindy you do what you want if it makes you happy, if being with Carla makes you happy then thats what you need to do" WHAT A SWEETHEART.

 

But tonight I also faced my bestfriend Carla and told her that I loved her, and she said she felt the same way for the longest time but never had the courage to tell me, then we kissed and it was so romantic. But again I want to thank you for helping me through my weird situation. THANKS

[bleeder]

Hey, glad to know that you have found the courage to follow your instincts! Keep it going girl!

 

All the best to your future relationships!

[blaise]

ei der! first of all.. I think being a lesbian is normal.. Okie.. so that you'll not feel alone being a lesbian.. A year ago.. I just had a relationship with a girl.. okei.. kind of embarrassing to say dat on public but.. just to help you out girl.. 8) anyway.. I think.. it's okay being a lesbian and having crushes on a girl.. but I think it's not normal to make love with a girl.. because.. well.. eew.. but, people make mistakes.. so.. all I have to say is.. never make love with a girl again.. just one question.. who invited to make love.. you or your bestbud?! pls answer and pls. I also have a problem it's called, who will you choose, the guy you love or the guy who really loves you? pls. help me too.. pls because right now i'm so like confused! that's all! bye!

[Cindy_Kehler_20031607306448]

Well the answer to your question is neither of us invited the other to make love, it just......kid of happened . well not really when she kissed me I moved my hands and touched her breasts then undid her shirt and it pretty much went from their. I don't agree with you though, it is ok to make love to another girl, and everyone has their own opinion. its just that Carla is everything to me.

 

I mean when I was with all the boyfriends I had, I was never really happy with them. When we would make out they would be pretty rough, grapping my breast and squeezing. or kissing me too hard and wanting to have more. or they would want me to give them uhhh you know...head, but when I'm with Carla she is so gentle and knows exactly what I want.

 

All in all I prefer Carla over any of my guy friends, shes gentle, sweet and its just so much better to make love with her cuz we each know how we want it and all.

[Boricua7]

I think it's not normal to make love with a girl.. because.. well.. eew.. but, people make mistakes.. so.. all I have to say is.. never make love with a girl again.

 

I'm glad you don't think making love to a girl isn't normal. I'm bisexual and quite proud of it. My boyfriend loves me despite the fact that I am attracted to women as well (actually, I think he likes this fact). Anyway, I think making love to someone of the same sex is nothing short of beautiful. Making LOVE is a beautiful thing despite the sex of the people who are involved (an animal is something different though *shudders*). My point is, I am glad to hear that you are happy and that your ex-boyfriend was so amazingly understanding. I hope that your relationship with Carla continues to be amazing!