MSP Posted September 22, 2008 Share Posted September 22, 2008 *I fiqured I would rant in here, and see people's opinions if you don't mind* I'm 20 years old Asian-american male and every since the years after 18, I figured my life would be better. I have went to a community college for 2 years and today I'm currently at a student at UTA (University of Texas at Arlington.) Today I had to take a test in Business Calculus class and I know I did horrible on. I study this whole week for this 11 question test. I mean its sad that I used up my time to study all the time only to do poorly on a test. As a matter of fact I always choke on test. How can I do better? I feel like other people just study as little and they are greatly do better then me. I try to cut down my hobbies so I can do good. That aside, my love life sucks. I never had a girlfriend in my life and I'm still a virgin. I look at porn and whack off to on a daily basis. It's pretty sad. I haven't been to the gym for a year and I'm becoming a fat ass. Reason why I stop going because no one really noticed me even when I lost weight and gotten muscles. When I'm really feeling down I sometimes drink and smoke weed at a friends house. I'm currently trying to stop, but sometimes my emotions get so downed that I just want to smoke something. I almost picked up cigarettes, but I didn't. I also feel anti-social with women in general. All my friends (95%) are males, and no I'm not gay, I'm just terrible with women. I'm not a funny guy unless I do something utterly stupid like fall down or being drunk. Any tips will be appreciated =D God I hate my life! I'm eating a brownie now because I hate my life. (I didn't mean to sound like * * * * * , but its the truth) "The truth hurts." Link to comment
greywolf Posted September 22, 2008 Share Posted September 22, 2008 *I fiqured I would rant in here, and see people's opinions if you don't mind* I'm 20 years old Asian-american male and every since the years after 18, I figured my life would be better. I have went to a community college for 2 years and today I'm currently at a student at UTA (University of Texas at Arlington.) Today I had to take a test in Business Calculus class and I know I did horrible on. I study this whole week for this 11 question test. I mean its sad that I used up my time to study all the time only to do poorly on a test. As a matter of fact I always choke on test. How can I do better? I feel like other people just study as little and they are greatly do better then me. I try to cut down my hobbies so I can do good. Some people are just poor test takers. Try not to get so nervous. Read all the instructions on your test and be calm. That aside, my love life sucks. I never had a girlfriend in my life and I'm still a virgin. I look at porn and whack off to on a daily basis. It's pretty sad. When I was 20 I 'whacked' off twice a day. It's not sad. I haven't been to the gym for a year and I'm becoming a fat ass. Reason why I stop going because no one really noticed me even when I lost weight and gotten muscles. Being fit and healthy shouldn't be about other people noticing it. It's about your personal well-being. It's about feeling good and healthy. It's about the extra confidence that comes from feeling good and healthy. When I'm really feeling down I sometimes drink and smoke weed at a friends house. I'm currently trying to stop, but sometimes my emotions get so downed that I just want to smoke something. I almost picked up cigarettes, but I didn't. I also feel anti-social with women in general. All my friends (95%) are males, and no I'm not gay, I'm just terrible with women. I'm not a funny guy unless I do something utterly stupid like fall down or being drunk. Any tips will be appreciated =D Lots of people don't really have good friends with the opposite sex. I think you just get too nervous. Just be yourself. God I hate my life! I'm eating a brownie now because I hate my life. (I didn't mean to sound like * * * * * , but its the truth) "The truth hurts." Link to comment
MSP Posted September 22, 2008 Author Share Posted September 22, 2008 Good stuff Greywolf. I'm just having a bad day =( I just know I'm smarter then I look. I swear test are always worded different or are way off the examples off homework problems and such. The test I took today was 11 questions. 8 out of 11 are 5 pts a piece (multiple choice) and 3 questions were not multiple choice at 20 pts a piece. I know i got 2 of the 3, 20 pt question. I know I missed one because I didn't cover this particular problem because I didn't think it be on the test. I was wrong. Link to comment
ZigZagZiggy8 Posted September 26, 2008 Share Posted September 26, 2008 dude everything u said is like how i feel, but i'm brown, i know asia but most people think yellow i feel like my color makes me not get girls because i'm into white girls, growing up in a white Christian private school does that and dude i know why u hack off and eat, the same reason i do it, when i'm down it realses endorphins and it makes us feel a hell of a lot better hope it gets better *hug* i'm not gay either jusr clarifying Link to comment
Belgian girl Posted September 26, 2008 Share Posted September 26, 2008 you shouldn't focus that much at opinions/reactions of other people a lot of people act kind of strategic even if it could hurt others it's important to love yourself and go to the gym etc. just for yourself you should love yourself before letting a potential partner or something love you Link to comment
michelangelo Posted September 26, 2008 Share Posted September 26, 2008 Don't do this to yourself. You have to respect yourself. Go to the gym as much as you can (at least 2-3 times a week), get a gym-buddy, it usually helps. You've mentioned that you an Asian male, then why don't you join an Asian club/student organisation if there is one, even if it's outside of university, this builds a support network. Make a clear goal in your life (write a letter to yourself about what you want to achieve and where you want to be 5-7 years from now, be creative!) and work towards that goal. Start learning another language!, attend workshops. All this builds your confidence and it makes you noticeable. When others see that you are confident and are striving for something in your life, this attacts people, great people, both males and females. You'll develop a good network of people and from there you'll have no problems finding a worthy partner. The main idea is to do this for yourself first. I wish you the best! Link to comment
txblues Posted September 27, 2008 Share Posted September 27, 2008 i don't know the answer with women but you need to start with a postitive attitude. i've read parts from tony robbins who quotes pat riley. pat riley tried to motivate his team to advance from division champions to nba champions by challenging each player to improve his game 1%. how are ways you can improve yourself bye 1 %? its not alot to ask for but as long as you are improving its all that matters. right now i'm in the stage of accepting failure in rejection. don't make making friends your goal or having an awesome conversation with a girl your goal. just get used to to idea of a girl rejecting you. once you become used to rejection conversation would probably flow easier. just challenge yoursel to get out of your comfor zone each day, each situation. Link to comment
Belgian girl Posted September 28, 2008 Share Posted September 28, 2008 For me personally it also became little important the idea of 'owning' someone / winning someone for me but more that the people I care very much about are happy, even if it's with someone else, and that I can just enjoy the moment and feel happy with myself and things happening to me Hope you're well ? Link to comment
MSP Posted October 5, 2008 Author Share Posted October 5, 2008 Thank you for the feed back. I tried to feel better in time Link to comment
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