pilot Posted September 22, 2008 Share Posted September 22, 2008 I need some help from everyone. I still think about my ex everyday. Not in an obsessive "I want my boyfriend back" but throughout the day I am reminded about him or think about him. I am curious if that is normal. I have not heard from him in about a year. I don't exist to him anymore. He has moved on. He is dating someone now and I have been seeing a few guys but nothing too serious. We have many mutual friends so I hear about him and that is still tough. I smile and silently wish him all the best when someone tells me something I dont want to hear. I am getting concerned that this is going to be with me forever. I think part of the problem is that in the back of my head I still wish I had apologized for some of the things I did and who I was in the relationship. I received so much great info on this site but the overall opinion was that I needed to wait for my ex to talk to me before I apologized. If I did apologize it needed to be years after the breakup. My gut tells me this was not the best thing to to. I have realized so much since the relationship ended. I have become the person I always wanted to be. However, what is so hard is that it took him leaving for me to figure all this out. It is so true that it is the most painful events in our lives that shape who we are and cause us to learn the most. I read the follwing quote from Maya Angelou everyday to help me through the day. I still can't help wish that things had turned out differently. "You did then what you knew how to do and when you knew better... you did better!" It seems like it should be easy to forget about someone who doesnt even acknowledge I exist. Yet, I miss him so much. Link to comment
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