Angel_baby Posted September 10, 2008 Share Posted September 10, 2008 Lately I have been getting worse about obsessing about, well just about everything! It is getting bad and I can tell it is starting to take it toll on my body and my mind. Thing is I can't seem to calm down. I have so much pressure on me plus I am a mother of a 2 year old! Everyday I will have anxiety attacks over even stupid small things. I am also OCD. A messy living room sends me into a full blown anxiety attack! Just thinking about it is starting to make me stress right now! I had shingles at the beginning of this year from stress and I don't want to have them again. But at the rate I am going I will. I am so worried about losing our house. My husband seems to think he can spend all the money without paying the bills. We are 4 months behind, in the last 5 months only 1 payment has been made. I have a serious problem when it comes to having to pay these bills. I know if I pay them my husband is going to be mad and if I don't the collectors are mean. I have my phone set to restricted calls because I get like 30+ calls a day from them! I feel like I am letting my life go by me. I keep thinking of the right things to do to try to get out of this but nothing seems to be doable! I am disabled and can't work, everyday I am in a lot of pain, which doesn't help with my stress at all. I have sadly gotten to the point that I never want to leave the house for anything. I don't like even making calls to anybody. I used to be a very outgoing person but now I have clammed up from the stress and pain. My house is a mess, I have to spray for fleas ( I took in stray kittens that were dumped) but can't because my house is a mess. I will get one room clean, hard to do when I am in pain... just to have my husband tear it up the next day. I HAVE to have a yard sale for some money but now it is raining AGAIN this weekend. I have been trying to have this for the last month in a half now. I don't know what to do, I am so stressed out that I am "froze up" and scared to do anything. I can't cope. I am so overwhelmed. Link to comment
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