Broke during a conversation

[j.man]

Not how you might think. I've been thinking a lot lately particularly about how I'll be moving on. Fact is I still love her immensely and want to be with her, but if she has no interest in the same goal, I need to do what's necessary to move on, as much as it might hurt.

 

As you might know, I moved out from her apartment in Florida to go home. Originally, the plan was that I would leave most my things there because we'd planned on me moving back in with her once I'd gotten things settled financially for myself (I also let her know there were a number of things she could ditch when she changed apartments).

 

Since then by about two months, we've split by her wishes and have not talked much, mainly just enough to work out paying off joint debts. In one specific moment she initiated in a conversation and pretty much went off on me saying she expected me to pay off my portion of the joint debt and that she didn't want me in her life anymore. I've taken the conversation seriously though I believe a lot of it came from financial stress she was feeling at that time.

 

She has kept me friends on her myspace and checks my page almost regularly. Our conversations per the debt have been distanced but civil. I decided to bring up the issue of my things and she seemed particularly distant and avoiding about it.

 

(me) says:

Hey, not that there's any particular rush, but for reference were you planning on withdrawing the rest of the money from the account?

she says:

yeah, it would only let me take out 500

(me) says:

Alright, no problem

(me) says:

Did you get rid of the few things I left there during the move?

she says:

some stuff

 

 

(me) says:

What have you held on to?

she says:

i dono

she says:

what are you looking for?

(me) says:

Nothing particularly. Just was wondering what of mine was left

 

She did not respond after that. I thought I was clear that I wanted to know what she had of mine still. At this point I broke and didn't bother to inquire further, hence the conversation died. It kinda sucks because if she doesn't have any feelings, I don't want to have any either. I was kinda begrudgingly hoping she'd respond cooperatively so I could essentially be "shut down" right there. And I would think that any step towards permanent closure would be something she'd embrace.

 

I know I'll have to message her later once I've had a few moments to collect myself and ask more directly about my things. Fact is I don't want most them back and will most likely tell her to do what she will with most of it, but the principle stands.

 

Was I too vague do you think, or do you think she's being a tad dodgy about it?

[blue_dahlia]

Was I too vague do you think, or do you think she's being a tad dodgy about it?

 

I think it was clear what you were asking. She was being a little cold :sad: