TBE_1989 Posted September 5, 2008 Share Posted September 5, 2008 Over the last few months, I've realised that I'm really, really hard on myself in terms of analysing my personality. When I'm out with friends, or meet new people, or am in any sort of social situation, if I'm less than 100% nice, charming, fun and eloquent to absolutely everyone, I get really depressed, my self-esteem goes to hell and I overanalyse everything to the point of getting really down. It's turning social situations into a nightmare. I LOVE socialising, meeting new people, etc, but if I can't be, like, the world's coolest person in front of everyone all the time, I look back on the situation until the next social situation occurs, beating myself up over it. If I'm tired, stressed, nervous, I feel I have to apologise to absoultely everyone over it. If I talk too fast and someone asks me to slow down I get really upset. If I have a few drinks and go on a ''bad buzz'' (you know how alcohol can have that affect sometimes) I blame myself and feel indulgent and hedonistic for having a drink or two in the first place. Does anyone else get like this? Feeling like sh!t cos you can't be perfect all the time? I try so hard to be a good friend, a cool person to be around. I try to be friendly to new people, to look attractive to members of the opposite sex, to try make everyone around me feel good, but whenever I fail even slightly at this, I start thinking I'm the world's worst person Am i crazy? Any ideas on how to stop this? Link to comment
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